Be real to yourself

Be real to yourself. Express what you feel. If you like or don't like certain thing, just say it. Don't force yourself to accept it because you don't want to offend anybody. Of course, don't over do it. We still have to be polite.

I am who I am. I am not here to please everyone. If you like me, just stay. If you don't like me, just leave. I wouldn't mind to lose a friend if he or she is not worth it.

Friends have many types. Some are true friends, those friends who really care about you, and willing to share your happiness and burdens. Some are friends for activies, playing sports, watching movie and going to parties. Some are colleagues, some colleagues can become true friends with you but most of them are merely colleagues to you.

Who are the one who always support you and be true to you? They are the one who you have to appreciate and be thankful. I am glad I can still find a few who are willing to share my joy when I am happy; and listen to my sorrow when I am down. We can't be perfect for everybody. Those who are not can just remain formal friends. I wouldn't want to interfere and know more about those people if we are not close. Only those people I care and important to me, I will put extra effort for them.

Most of my friends commented I was cold and cool when they first met me. But they will change their mind after get to know me. Some friends will say I am very quiet, those are the friends who don't know me well. It is because I don't speak too much to someone I barely know or I am not interested in them.

Friends are important in our life. They actually play an important part in our life. It is sad if there are no one to share things with you. Good friends influence you in good things, but bad friends influence you in bad things. Be caution when you choose friends.

戏如人生, 人生如戏

人无聊时就会想无聊的事. 看完"随时候命" 港剧, ending 还不错, 有情人终成眷属. 这都是大家希望看到的结局. 可以和喜欢的人在一起. 过程中, 也许遇到障碍, 彼此不信任, 互相怀疑, 但是最重要的是要互相沟通, 把误会化解.

对看电视剧的人来说, 最关注的是男女主角会不会在一起, 有没有完美的结局. 好人有好报, 坏人有坏报. 大家都相信你种什么因, 就有什么样的果.

人家说戏如人生, 人生如戏. 在戏里的故事, 也可能发生在我们的周围. 当然有些情节只能在戏里发生. 像你希望和你喜欢的人在一起, 可是却不如你所愿. 在戏里, A 喜欢 B, B 却喜欢 C, A 就回成全B, 默默的离开. 但是, 剧本不会就这样停在这里. 它会让 D 出现, A 与 D 就擦出不一样的火花. 总之, 它会想办法让结局变得完美.

爱情就是不能勉强, 因勉强没有幸福. 是你的,就是你的; 不是你的, 就该放手. 只能安慰自己, 是因为时机未到. 我相信神已为每一个人都预备了适合自己的对象, 只是时间的问题. 幸运的话, 你可以很快就找到属于自己的幸福. 不够幸运的话, 也许要经过一些挫折才会找到那真命天子. Anyway, 我只想相信神.

如果有如果 -- IF

如果有如果, 你会想做什么?
如果有如果, 我想回到我最开心的时刻.
如果有如果, 我不会做让自己后悔的事.
如果有如果, 我想坚持自己的梦想, 读自己喜欢的科系.
如果有如果, 我不想工作, 环游世界.
如果有如果, 我希望有特异功能, 想要什么就有什么.
如果有如果, 我希望可以不说话, 别人就可以了解我.
如果有如果, 我希望时间可以停止在最浪漫的时刻.
如果有如果, 我希望自己永远是十八岁.
如果有如果, 我想知道你在想什么.
如果有如果, 我希望自己是jumper, 可以去那里就那里.
如果有如果, 我想擦掉令我伤心的回忆.
如果有如果, 我希望能令你天天开心.
如果有如果, 我不希望你离开我.
如果有如果, 我想天天和你在一起.
如果有如果, 我希望大家可以坦白, 简单一点.

我好像已沉浸在 "如果" 的世界. 我必需将自己抽离出来, 回到现实的世界. 怀疑自己是否有妄想症, 整天想一些不可能发生的事情. 可是,有时却觉得很有趣. 如果可以的话,应该尝试写科幻小说.

If there is "if" what would you like to do?
I would like to go back to the happiest moment.
I wouldn't do the things that I would feel regret.
I would persist on my own dream, to take the course I wanted.
I wouldn't work but travel the world.
I hope I can have extra-ordinary power, to get what I wanted.
I hope people can understand me without saying a word.
I hope the time would stop at the most romance moment.
I hope I am always 18 years old.
I would want to know what you are thinking.
I hope I am a jumper, to go wherever I want.
I hope to forget the things that let me sad.
I hope you are happy always.
I hope you won't leave me.
I hope to be with you everyday.
I hope everyone can be frank and simple to each other.

It seems like I am in the world of "If", it's time for me to get out from here and turn to the reality. I guess I am paranoid, as I like to think the things which are impossible. But, I think it can be interesting sometimes.

My mind is blank

I normally update my blog once or twice a week, and it usually in the weekend. I always have some inspiration or thinking during the week. I always hope I can have Iphone or Smart phone, so I can update my blog any time. It's weird that my mind become blank when I want to write something. I usually read my friend's blog before I start to think what to write.

Well, I didn't start up with a good week. I was late at work on Monday. The attendance become very important especially during the economy recession. "If you really want the job, please be serious about it." I was a bit bothered by it, but I did not have a choice. I need to put effort for it, go to bed early at night, and force myself to wake up at 6:30am in the morning.

I am struggling to come out with words right now. I do not know what to write, my mind is not working well as I am a bit sleepy. I think I should just stop here, and I have been spending half an hour for this.

Valentines

Valentines is finally over. I felt lonely when I saw ladies carried the roses, the couples were cuddling in public places, stalls were selling roses, love-shaped balloons, soft toys, restaurants are having promotion for valentine days... Everywhere is full of Valentines atmosphere. I was trying not to have any feeling about it, treat it as a normal day. Maybe, I still wish to receive flowers, chocolate like every girls wishes. I am still longing for romance.

Some people happy, some people sad. We have different stories... Valentines will only be meaningful when the couple truely love each other. I am wishing everyone is able to find their true love.

What is true love?
True love = Love + Sex (It's from a Chinese movie)
Believe it or not... Lol...

Thoughts... realization...

Just felt it's such a long day today. I was quite stressed at work because of the new budget given. I was a bit lost my mind, wonder around like zombie but still have to work, reply emails, doing quotations. Just found the time passed very slowly.

Have planned to watch movie after work. Rushing for my work, couldn't wait to leave office as soon as I could.

The title of the movie "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button". It didn't turn out to be my type of movie. I felt it is boring when I was watching it. Many times I felt asleep but I stayed awake, I was expecting something exciting but it turned out to be prosaic.

I think this is a movie that make you think, and I think a lot after watching it. Benjamin Button had an unusual life than the other, he lived backward. He borned as in he was 80 years old man, and he became younger and younger as the time passed by. I don't know if this is good or bad if this is really happen in life. He couldn't grow and live normally like it suppose to be. He might miss a lot of things in life. He can't stay with the woman he loved as he grew younger and younger. The sad thing is he didn't have a choice as he borned in that way. But he didn't blame anyone, he just accept who he was and live normally.

I just realize how lucky I am, as I was borned normal and healthy. I asked myself a lot of questions. Am I really treasure my life? Have I really put the effort for everything I do? Do I know what I really want? What do I need to achieve in life? I found myself still seeking for the answer and am very puzzled.

Especially in the middle of the night, the inspiration comes. It's good to have some realization. It makes me to think. It's time to do something about my life. Hope it can be something memorable and be able to tell the story to my grandchildren. Lol...