Thoughts... realization...

Just felt it's such a long day today. I was quite stressed at work because of the new budget given. I was a bit lost my mind, wonder around like zombie but still have to work, reply emails, doing quotations. Just found the time passed very slowly.

Have planned to watch movie after work. Rushing for my work, couldn't wait to leave office as soon as I could.

The title of the movie "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button". It didn't turn out to be my type of movie. I felt it is boring when I was watching it. Many times I felt asleep but I stayed awake, I was expecting something exciting but it turned out to be prosaic.

I think this is a movie that make you think, and I think a lot after watching it. Benjamin Button had an unusual life than the other, he lived backward. He borned as in he was 80 years old man, and he became younger and younger as the time passed by. I don't know if this is good or bad if this is really happen in life. He couldn't grow and live normally like it suppose to be. He might miss a lot of things in life. He can't stay with the woman he loved as he grew younger and younger. The sad thing is he didn't have a choice as he borned in that way. But he didn't blame anyone, he just accept who he was and live normally.

I just realize how lucky I am, as I was borned normal and healthy. I asked myself a lot of questions. Am I really treasure my life? Have I really put the effort for everything I do? Do I know what I really want? What do I need to achieve in life? I found myself still seeking for the answer and am very puzzled.

Especially in the middle of the night, the inspiration comes. It's good to have some realization. It makes me to think. It's time to do something about my life. Hope it can be something memorable and be able to tell the story to my grandchildren. Lol...