The Losing of the Soul-life and the Rapture of the Overcomers

The title for this week morning revival is "The Losing of the Soul-life and the Rapture of the Overcomers". It is a warning message for eveyone of us. I didn't have morning revival couple of weeks, but I enjoyed what bro & sis had shared in the meeting.

Luke 9:23-25: And He said to them all, If anyone wants to come after Me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow Me. For whoever wants to save his soul-life shall lose it; but whoever loses his soul-life for My sake, this one shall save it. For what is a man profited if he gains the whole world but loses of forteits himself?

1 John 2:15-17: Do not love the world nor the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, love for the Father is not in him; because all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh and the lust of the eyes and the vainglory of life, is not of the Father but is of the world. And the world is passing away, and its lust, but he who does the will of God abides forever.

Lord Jesus taught the disciples to take uo their cross and follow Him by denying their soul-life:
1. To save the soul-life is to allow the soul to have its enyoyment and to escape suffering; to lose the soul-life is to cause the soul to lose its enjoyment and thereby to suffer.

2.To lose the soul-life is to lose the enjoyment of the soul, and to save the soul-life means to preserve the soul in its enjoyment.

3. To deny the self is to reject the soul's desire, preference, and choice.

4. We must deny our soul, our soulish life, with all its pleasures in this age, so that we may gain it in the enjoyment of the Lord in the coming age.

5. If we allow our soul to suffer the loss of its enjoyment in this age for the Lord's sake, we will cause our soul to have its enjoyment in the kingdom age; we will share the Lord's joy in ruling over the earth.

Preserving the soul-life is related to lingering in the earthly and material things.
1. We linger in the earthly things because we care for our soul's enjoyment in the present age.

2. Lot's wife became a pillar of salt because she took a lingering look backward at Sodom, indicating that she loved and treasured the evil world that God was going to judge and utterly destroy.

3. Lingering in the earthly things for the sake of our soul's enjoyment will cause us to lose our soul; that is, our soul will suffer the loss of its enjoyment in the coming kingdom age.

Luke 21:34-36: But take heed to yourselves lest perharps your hearts be weighed down with debauchery and drunkenness and the anxieties of life, and that day come upon you suddenly as a snare. For it will come in upon all those dwelling on the face of all the earth. But be watchful at every time, beseeching that you would prevail to escape all these things which are about to happen and stand before the Son of Man.

A letter for you

Thanks for the conversation we had last night. I am really appreciated it. When I am lonely or have a problem, I know who to turn to. I am grateful that we can still remain friend after gone through so many things. It's good to end thing like this.

I am really happy for you that you have got the job you wanted, especially during economic crisis. I think God must have preserved you. Do all your best, and take Christ as everything. I will continue to pray for you.

You said I am a nice girl but too soft hearted. Yes, I admit that. I am too soft hearted in many ways. Too easy to trust people, too easy to fall for someone, too easy to forgive people... You said I have to be a strong girl and I must learn from mistake.

Thanks for your advise. Thanks for our friendship. Thanks for everything...

哭其实是好方法

没想到我刚痊愈的伤口又被割伤了. 也许是因为刚刚才痊愈, 所以再次被割伤后感觉特别疼痛. 没有什么比哭能让受伤的心得到安慰. 很多人说哭不能解决问题, 但它确实可以有效的释放心中不满,伤心,委屈的情绪. 哭后, 心情会好一点. 心情好后就可以想怎么解决问题.

我想这次的伤口也许可以很快的痊愈吧, 因为并不是伤得很严重, 只是皮外伤, 止止血就可以了. 休息后, 又可以继续往前.

我得不停的鼓励自己, 叫自己坚强,勇敢一点, 不要败给残酷的现实. 努力及勇敢的去面对才是正确的态度. 我要加油! 周杰伦的稻香让自己觉得自己是身在福中不知福. 感情受伤只是生命中的一个瑕疵, 它并不是生命的全部. 我还有很多事等着我去做.

没想到我现在还可以有这积极的想法. 回顾刚才在房里哭得死去活来, 所想的都是消极的想法. 但是, 哭完后,擦擦泪, 还是可以振作起来, 虽然现在眼睛还是红红肿肿的. 好啦, 现在没事了. 感觉很好. 我要看海角七号, 不写了.

像梦一场

今天早上起来, 怀疑过去五天是不是一场梦, 分不出是真是假. 一切都发生的太快了. 来得快,去的也快. 所以像一场梦.

有没有一个东西像橡笔檫一样可以把做错的事, 不好的回忆檫掉.男人把责任推给了女人, 说声对不起, 我们作回朋友就算了. 难道, 男人可以轻易忘记所发生的事吗? 男人与女人的想法差距还真大. 我想我可以大慨看清男人所要的是什么. 可是,自己太相信爱情, 以为可以有好的开始. 是自己太天真了, 以为他也是这么想. 我错了, 一次又一次的让自己受伤. 我也希望自己可以从经验中吸取教训, 下次不要让同样的事情发生第三次.

每个人都想尽办法去保护自己, 却不知道在保护自己时伤到对方. 对爱情很茫然, 迷失了方向, 不知道下一步该怎么走. 你说认识的时间太短了, 让你感到压力. 不知你的压力从何而来, 因为我并没有要求什么. 我也知道这一切都太快了. 可是, 我并不觉得这是一件坏事. 只能说你还没有准备好. 也有些例子, 双方只认识短短的一个月就结婚了, 他们也过得很幸福快乐. 这并不是因为时间的关系, 而是你根本没有准备好新一段感情的开始.

我没有资格说你什么, 我也很自私, 我希望自己可以找到幸福. 但是, 下次我应该更精明. 但, 我不知道会不会有下次, 因为对爱情已产生恐惧感.

If I were a boy

That's the song I heard from the radio. The song really sing out how women really feel and I think it is true. I think women are always the weaker one in a relationship.

"If I were a boy, Even just for a day.
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
and throw on want I wanted and go.

I'd drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it
Cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I'd think that I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
And I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her Cuz I know how it hurts
When u lose the one you wanted
Cuz he's taking you for granted
And every thing you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
tell everyone it's broken
so they will think that I was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first
and make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home, to come home

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
when you lose the one you wanted
Cuz he's taking you for granted
and everything you had got destroyed!

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say It's just a mistake
think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought that I would wait for you,
you thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, oh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you're were a better man

You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cuz you're takeing her for granted
and everything you had got destroyed
but you are just a boy."

Christmas Eve

How was your Christmas Eve? I think I had a good one. I had bought the presents for my colleague and brought to office on Christmas Eve. No ones had mood to work that day. Time passed quite fast. I distribute the gifts to colleagues. And I also received some gifts from others. At first I thought this year will not receive many gift due to recession, but I was wrong.

In lunch time, we went out together with the customer service supports. We have great time together in Hans. Even the market is bad, but we should stay positive :).
I was hoping to leave earlier so that I can run some errands before I went to brother's house for dinner. Anyway, we were released at 4+pm.

It's good to gather with families on this special day. After dinner, we were singing Christmas songs, and sister-in-law shared with us the significance of Christmas day. I was surprised to hear from her that she actually knew 25 Dec is not the actual birthday of Jesus Christ. According to the bible, Jesus was not borned in winter so it shouldn't be in Dec. However, it is significance to remember Jesus's birthday, for saving sinners life and give us the eternal life. I have the same feeling too, as human we are very forgetful, it is good that there is a specific day to remember Jesus's birthday.

After dinner, I went watching Twilight. It was not as good as I am expected. Hmmm... it was little too long for the introduction. No much surprise... Though I have good time and enjoyed it.

爱情的功课

爱情说复杂并不复杂，说简单并不简单。很多时候是人自己将它复杂化。 是因为想太多了。把简单的事扩大了，本来可以很简单的却变复杂了。一个小小的环境，一句不刻意的话，一个小小的动作，都让我们有很多的遐想。也许，它并不代表任何意义。我们只是把本来普通的事加上意识吧了！

要简单也可以很简单. 我觉得最重要还是要互相坦白. 尽量有好的沟通, 知道与了解大家的想法, 试着去体谅与宽容对方. 我最不喜欢有事却没有说出来反而隐藏起来. 这样就会让另一方胡思乱想, 事情就复杂化了. 可以的话, 一起面对所遇到的困难.

有很多事情的发生不是在我们的控制范围内, 我们没有办法让已经发生的事情当作没有发生过. 最重要的是我们该以什么样的态度去面对. 有些人也许要花很长的时间去调节心情, 有些人也许在很短的时间就康复了. 这并没有所谓的对与错. 我不能说你康复的时间太长了. 每个人都有他处理事情的方式, 我们必须尊重他们.

你可以说你对爱情没有安全感, 没有太大的信心, 因为你曾经受伤过. 我想每个人都有自己的过去, 也许是好的回忆, 也许是痛苦的回忆. 无论是怎样的回忆, 重要的是珍惜现在所拥有的, 而不是失去后才后悔. 我们没有办法预知将来会发生什么事情, 那为什么要为无法预知的将来而烦恼呢? 说白了, 人还是为自己着想, 每个人都很爱自己, 保护自己, 不让自己受到伤害. 我没有能力让你忘记过去, 但是如果你愿意, 我希望可以和你开创未来.

给对方多些时间与空间吧. 很多事情是急不得的, 要花时间去经营的. 耐心很重要吧, 学会如何去等待. 虽然, 它将会是我一辈子都学不好的功课, 但是, 我会尽量尝试做到最好.


Posted on 25 Dec, 4:40pm

Party... Rest... Weekend Over!!

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It was fun last night. I attended Mimi's birthday party. The theme of the birthday party was "White winter" and we have to wear winter clothings. Hmmm... imagine in this tropical climate in Singapore, we have to dress like we are in the winter. But it was fun, cos I don't usually have the chance to wear winter clothes unless I go to other countries in winter season. I was still thinking what should I wear the night before. I found the blue & white stripes top, which I have bought it for long time and I didn't have chance to wear it. Hehe... finally, I found the opportunity to wear it last night.

I came home quite late last night and went to bed around 1+am. I managed to wake up this morning and went to the church. But I was very sleepy after I got home. My stomach was a bit upset,and had diarrhea. Oh, sad... my stomach still feel a bit funny.

Today is the Chinese festival, "Dong Zhi", which Chinese will gather together with their families and relatives. The traditional food for "Dong Zhi" is the rice ball, "Tang Yuan". My sister is cooking the ginger soup for the rice ball. It smell really good. I need to go now to eat the rice ball...

带我走

带我走, 去一个没有烦恼的地方.
慵懒的躺在沙滩上, 享受阳光和海风.

带我走, 放下这里的一切.
所有的压力, 不开心的事都抛开.

带我去世外桃园, 越远越好.
不想回头, 继续往前.

带我去一个没有人认识我的地方.
重新开始!

可是有很多可是, 要放下并不是这么容易.
要走却没有勇气.
走了也许就不能回来.
走了, 那里不一定会比这里好.

留下来会比较好吗?

Letting go

I am inspired by the sms sent by Mimi this evening. She said she cant forward sms anymore after she buy her new iPhone.

Here's the message:
"I don't know why we all hang on to something we're better off letting go. It's like we're scared to lose what we don't even really have. Some of us say we'd rather have that something than absolutely nothing...but the truth is having it halfway is harder than not having it at all."

I think I face the above mentioned dilemma a lot especially in the relationship. It's quite difficult to get win-win situation in a relationship. I always hope that those guys who are or were after me can still be my friends. When I was in that situation, I was hestitated and confused, as I did not know what would be the best for both of us. I was struggled a lot if I should let go. If I am letting go, can we still be friends. There are a lot of question marks.

Another situation, when you finally have to say "fareware" or "good bye" to the one you in love before, can you really letting go? It's easy to say than done. You tell your friends you have let go, but deep in your heart you still miss him. For me, it will take a while, maybe a year, 2 years... That one day will come.

SUNDAY!

I was meeting with my ex-flatemate for lunch at IMM this afternoon. We didn't meet each other for a long time. I am happy to see her. We were chatting while having our lunch. After lunch, we went window shopping. Hoon was looking for new shoes for her friend's wedding. I just remember that her feet are really small, her feet size is No. 3. She has the difficulty to find the right size, as they are either out of stock or the shops do not sell size 3 shoes. So, feet with small size is not a good thing also.

After shopping, we went to buy some drinks. It happen that there was an authograph session for 周华健. 他的歌伴随着我们的成长, 他的歌是老少皆宜. 我们便找了一个位置留下来观看. 很喜欢他的歌, 首首歌都朗朗上口.

I saw the donut shop, I can't resist it and bought four more today. Donuts are really fattening, I have to cut down. After trying different flavours of the donuts, my favorite donuts are Almond and Oreo donuts. I don't really like the donut with the cream inside.

Donut

I am sweet-toothed, and like to eat chocolate, candies, cake, ice-cream. Just recent year, Donut become very popular in Singapore, and everywhere sells donuts. When it was just started 2 years ago, there were only a few Donut backery shops. There is one "Donut Factory" in Raffles city mall. When it just started, there were a lot of people queeing to buy donuts. I was not so fancy about it at that time. I don't like to quee so I didn't get the chance to eat it. Few months later, there was new branch opened in Suntec city. The quee was not long for dine-in, so I thought of give it a try. Since then, I always have a temptation to buy donuts when I see Donut Backery shop. More and more Donut backery shop or cafe open in Singapore.

There is another famous Donut Outlet called "J CO Donut & Coffee". After gymn, I went to Raffles city mall to have dinner. Before I went back home, I stopped by J CO and picked up 2 donuts. I was really wanted to buy 6, but no one will eat with me. My sis does not like donuts at all. So, I always buy 2 for myself. My colleague recommended Cheese & Garlic flavour. At first, I felt it was a weird combination. After I tasted it, and I think it is quite nice. I hope I can try other flavours. I am easily satisfied after eating donuts. But not too many at one time, 2 are just right. I try not to eat so often, maybe 2 times a month. Haha.. Oh.. I love it, can't wait to buy the next two.

Be optimistic

It has been a tough week at work. This is my first time that I feel the impact of economic crisis. It happened in 1997, and I was 15 years old at that time. I was still going to school, enjoying my teenage life. Again, in 2001-2002, there was a recession, a lot of people were unemployed, and also many people were killed because of SARS. It was really bad. And I was in New Zealand, and didn't really know what had happened in other side of the world. People were fighting for their life. New Zealand is like a land of piece, there was nothing major happen there, it's like we were in another world.

Now, 2009, economic crisis. Everyday, you can read from the newspaper or the news from TV about current market situation. How business, bank & people get affected by this recession. People feel down and gloomy. But there are some articles teach u how to be optimistic during the recession. We need to be thankful that we still keep our job, we have place to live, food to eat. We need to spend our money wisely, to have more saving.

I was thinking to complain about my work, how I felt misunderstood by my boss and I didn't like the way she handled the things. And now, I gonna stop it but to be thankful. Out there, there are a lot of people lose their jobs and maybe they are in the hardship now. So, why should I complain?

想通了!

有时候还是会不由自主的想起你.
要我完全的忘记不是一件容易的事.
当然感情是会随着时间流逝而淡化的. 偶尔, 还是会想起你的.
只是, 已经少了那种感觉了. 我想对我而言是件好事.
人的感情本来就是很脆弱, 可以为了某某因素而变质.
口口声声说"我爱你", 可是转过头可以跟另一个也这么说.

"爱情是盲目的", 很多人都以这句话为借口而开始发展一个自己认为没有结果的感情.
对,爱情会使一个人盲目, 失去理智, 感情用事.
是否该抽离目前的处境以一个第三者的身份去想一想下一步该怎么走呢?
不管你再怎么渴目爱情, 无法忍受孤当寂寞, 还是要理性的去处理事情.
不要因为一时的寂寞而走错路.
"千金难买早知道, 后悔没有特效药".
如果知道一开始就没有结果何必开始呢?
或许, 你会有不同的想法与意见, 只是如果可以把伤害减到最低对大家都有好处.

最后, 想和你们分享 Jay Chow 的这首 "稻香". 很好听的一首歌, 歌词也很有意义.

Lyric:

對這個世界如果你有太多的抱怨
dui zhe ge shi jie ru guo ni you tai duo de bao yuan
If you have too many grievances towards this world,

跌倒了就不敢繼續往前走
die dao le jiu bu gan ji xu wang qian zou
Having fallen, you lose the courage to go on

為什麼人要這麼的脆弱 墮落
wei shen me ren yao zhe me de cui ruo duo luo
Why do people want to be so weak and fallen?

請你打開電視看看
qing ni da kai dian shi kan kan
Please turn on the television now and see for yourself

多少人為生命在努力勇敢的走下去
duo shao ren wei sheng ming zai nu li yong gan de zou xia qu
So many people bravely fighting for their lives

我們是不是該知足
wo men shi bu shi gai zhi zu
Shouldn't we be content,

珍惜一切　就算沒有擁有
zhen xi yi qie jiu suan mei you yong you
Cherish all we have, even if we don't possess them

＊還記得你說家是唯一的城堡　
hai ji de ni shuo jia shi wei yi de cheng bao
I still remember you said home is your only castle

　隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑
sui zhe dao xiang he liu ji xu ben pao
Following the paddy fragrance, the flowing stream, I continued running

　微微笑　小時候的夢我知道
wei wei xiao xiao shi hou de meng wo zhi dao
Smile, I know the childhood dreams


　不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑　
bu yao ku rang ying huo chong dai zhe ni tao pao
Don't cry, let the fireflies take you away, escaping

　鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
xiang jian de ge yao yong yuan de yi kao
You will always find serenity in folk songs

　回家吧　回到最初的美好＊
hui jia ba hui dao zui chu de mei hao
Go home, return to the sweet past

不要這麼容易就想放棄　就像我說的
bu yao zhe me rong yi jiu xiang fang qi jiu xiang wo shuo de
Don't give up so easily, just like what I said,

追不到的夢想　換個夢不就得了
zhui bu dao de meng xiang huan ge meng bu jiu de liao
If the dream can't be reached, then just follow another dream

為自己的人生鮮艷上色　
wei zi ji de ren sheng xian yan shang se
Add bright colours to your own life

先把愛塗上喜歡的顏色
xian ba ai tu shang xi huan de yan se
Paint LOVE in your favourite colour

笑一個吧　功成名就不是目的
xiao yi ge ba gong cheng ming jiu bu shi mu di
Smile, fame and success isn't the aim

讓自己快樂快樂這才叫做意義
rang zi ji kuai le kuai le zhe cai jiao zuo yi yi
Be happy. That is the whole meaning

@ 童年的紙飛機　現在終於飛回我手裡
tong niang de zhi fei ji xian zai zhong yu fei hui wo shou li
(Just like how) I finally found my lost childhood innocence

＃所謂的那快樂　赤腳在田裡追蜻蜓追到累了
suo wei de na kuai le chi jiao zai tian li zhui qing ting zhui dao lei le
What is happiness? It's chasing dragonflies in the fields barefooted till we're exhausted

　偷摘水果被蜜蜂給叮到怕了　誰在偷笑呢
tou zhai shui guo bei mi feng gei ding dao pa le shui zai tou xiao ne
Tried to steal fruits but suffered so much beestungs until i am scared. Who's snickering (at me)?

　我靠著稻草人吹著風唱著歌睡著了
wo kao zhe dao cao ren chui zhe feng chang zhe ge shui zhao le
Leaning against the scarecrow, enjoying the wind, singing songs till I fall asleep

　哦　哦　午後吉他在蟲鳴中更清脆
o o wu hou ji ta zai chong ming zhong geng qing cui
Oh~ Oh~ In the afternoon, the guitar chords sound more crisp amidst the cries of the insects

　哦　哦　陽光灑在路上就不怕心碎
o o yang guang sa zai lu shang jiu bu pa xin sui
Oh~ Oh~ The sunlight shines on the road so there's no need to fear a heartbreak

　珍惜一切　就算沒有擁有＃
zhen xi yi qie jiu suan mei you yong you
Cherish everything, even if we don't possess them

Baking Cookies

My sister and flatmate are not at home this weekend. Hence, I am alone at home. My youngest sis came to accompany me on Friday night. I am fine to be alone at home, I have much freedom. I can online writing my blog or watching Korean drama without disturbance or interruption. I prefer to write my blog when I am alone. This is also the reason why I didn't update my blog so often.

I went to Dety's house yesterday to bake cookies. I bought the ready-baked powder, and just mixed all the ingredients together. It was very easy as just need to follow the instructions. We were backing the double chocolate cookies, it turned out quite nice. We are planning to bake muffin next time.

I didn't see Adriel & Casia (Dety's children) for more than a month, as they were sick and unable to attend the meeting. Adriel can walk now, though not very stable yet. The way he walks is very cute. Normally, in the meeting, he won't let me to carry him or touch him. But yesterday, he wanted me to feed him. It's really not easy to bring up children, especially when they are both infants and very young in age. They need people's attention and very dependent. I personally feel it's a hard job. We need God's sovereign power and grace.

It's raining again......

Keep good shape

I eat a lot lately. I think I have gained the appetite after I came back from hometown. My mum asked me to eat proper meal (steamed rice with meat & vege)because they have much nutrient and vitamins. As an obedient kid, I listened to my mum, and start to have "proper meal" for my lunch. Since then, I can't stop eating rice for my lunch. I feel hungry easily and tend to eat some pastries (cakes, bread or cookies).

I start to worry about my figure and weight. I need to go to gymn more often. I just weigh last Tuesday, it showed good result. I have lose 3.1kg of fats and convert the fats to muscles. I am quite happy about the result. I was puzzled why I did not gain weight as I ate a lot.

I hope to have fit body. Gambade!!

我的周末

对一个上班族来说周末很重要, 因为可以在周末休息. 不用上班的感觉很好, 不需要看人的脸色, 没有压力. 很多病都是由压力引起的. 虽然看不到它, 它的杀伤力却很强. 这已过的一周, 还过得很慢. 每天上班前, 都希望自己生病还是什么的, 有不想上班的念头.

终于, 周末来了, 本想要睡个痛快, 可是却睡不好. 最近老是做梦, 做很多小小的梦. 有些梦还廷真实的, 却记不起来了. 今天整天在家. 想出去却很懒. 早上, 被哥哥打来的电话吵醒了. 接着就吃姐姐煮的鸡汤寿面, 然后看DVD. 电影名称是 "The Great Debater". 讲述黑人怎么被白人歧视. 这是一部真人故事. 有一个老师, 他栽培了三名学生成为出色的辩论家. 赢了多场比赛,有了知名度. 最后,还赢了最有名的大学, Havard University. 后来, 这三名学生都有出色的成就, 为黑人作出了很大的贡献, 解除了白人对黑人的歧视. 这是一部颁非常感人的电影. 我想因为有了困难和挑战, 我们才会有进步, 努力去争取自己的权益.

通常, 星期五和六, 都会比较迟才睡. 上上网啦, 看电视啦, 看书啦, 什么都好. 现在, 上网看韩剧, 剧名叫 "On Air". 这是讲娱乐界的幕后工作的黑暗与丑陋之处. 当你还不是很红的时候, 说话要礼貌, 低声下气的, 只怕得罪人. 当你红的时候, 每个人都要对你毕恭毕敬, 照你的吩咐做事, 不敢得罪你, 说话都变得大声了. 所以说, 娱乐圈是很复杂的, 它是一个大染缸, 不知到进去后会变成什么样. 意志力不好的还是别发明星梦吧! 算是一步很精彩的电视剧吧, 有空看看吧!

Which Baby are You?

Which Baby Are You?

Jan
Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.

Feb
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest And loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

Mar
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.

Apr
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confidant. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Systematic. Hot but has brains.

May
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High-spirited.

Jun
You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!!

Jul
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

Aug
Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. No self-control. Kind hearted. Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an 'every thing's peachy' attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. in need of 'that someone'. Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by 'no pain no gain' caring. Always a suspect. Playful. Mysterious. 'charming' or 'beautiful' to everyone. stubborn. curious. Independent. Strong willed. A fighter.

Sept
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.

Oct
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.

Nov
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.

Dec
This straight-up means you are the most good-looking person possible... Better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. One guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves music. Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive.

Weird Dreams

I have some weird dreams recently. Those dreams were similar. In the dream, I was pregnant and was congratulated by my friends. The background was a house, everything was bright in the dream. I was wearing white, I couldn't see my friends' face. I can only feel that they were happy for me, and I was happy in the dream. It seems a beautiful dream for me.

Last Saturday, my brother came to my house to pick up the slow-cooker. He told me that he and sister-in-law dreamt respectively that I was married with someone suddenly. I found it weird and funny.

When I was young, I wished that I can get married at age of 27 year old. I wrote down a list which I hope my future husband can match them. I have forgotten what I have actually wrote down in the list, and never update it again. A sister shared with us in a dinner, if we love the Lord, we should not worry about our marriage. She was told to write down the criteria of her future husband. Later, the Lord met all the criterias she has listed. She encouraged us to take Christ as the preeminent one and the Lord will take care all your needs.


(Posted on 15 Nov 08)

Balancing

I can't sleep well last night. I think I need to avoid chatting before go to bed. It was a long week for me. There were a lot of issues and work to do. My company set a lot of rules to cut cost because of economy crisis. As a sales, I need to be more careful, especially it is related to money. It's getting very sensitive.

I felt quite stressful sometime when dealing with difficult customers. Some customers are very pushy, they will email and call you several times to ask the same thing. I am an impatient person, I don't like to repeat my word more than 2 times. I will get irritated and annoyed if they keep putting pressure on me.

Impatience is one of my weaknesses. I try to be nice when talking on the phone. Everyone is doing his job, he just hope things can be done on time. Regard this matter, I learn a lot from my new colleague. She has a very good attitude when talking to her customers. I neglect the importance of making good relationship with customers. Most of the time, we are talking about work. To have deeper relationship with people, we need to know their private life too. Chat about what they are interested in, for example, food, children, weekend plans. Once you know them well, they will render their help and support you in the business. I think it is mutual relationship. Not only you need their help, they also need your help.

I learn how to balance myself, not to get over-stressed by my job. I love to go to gymn after work or weekend to destress myself. When I am concentrated doing exercise, I forget about other things. All the worries and anxieties are gone. In order not to let my mind wander around, I start reading a book when I travel to work. It's another good way to get away from the worries. I am trouble-minded, whenever I am free, my mind start working, and most of the time, it produces negative thoughts. I want to be free from this, and not to be controlled by it, as it always makes me feel very emotional.

A new day ahead. I am going to plan my weekend. Maybe, I need some sleep later. Ciao~~

无聊

感觉有点陌生，因为很久没有 blogging 了。可能也不知道要写什么吧。没有发生什么特别的事。Blogging 就好像写日记一样,我只有在无聊的时候或有特别的事发生才会动笔或动脑写日记. 今天动脑的原因是一位无聊. 其实,我在等下班呢. 今天比较闲空,因为中国放假一周,这周是他们的黄金周. 在电子这一行,中国扮演着重要的角色, 因为很多工厂都在中国.

除了上下班,平常有空就去健身房,因为刚参加会员不久. 反正,闲着也是闲着, 不如去做运动,有益身体. 这下子,爸爸妈妈就不用担心了.他们就是希望我多做运动,身体才会健康.另外,也开始打壁球了, 停了一阵子因为没人陪我打.

以前常约出去的朋友也较少有往来,不想提为什么. 我想她很满意现在的生活吧,我也提不起勇气去约她. 不是做了什么对不起她的事,就是感情淡了. 好像没有什么见面的理由. 有时候,友情就是这样的脆弱吧!

"Had a Bad Day"- Daniel Powder

Just wanna to share a song, "Had a bad day" by Daniel Powder. What impressed me the most is the MV. Though the lyrics are pessimistic, the MV touched me. I like the scene in the train, the 2 main characters felt lonely when they saw other lovers cuddling in the train. Both of them were longing for love one. At the end, they were bond together by an advertisement. It was really romantic.

Redang Trip

I have wanted to go to Redang few years back but I didn't have the opportunity. Finally, our church had organised this trip. I heard Redang is beautiful, there are a lot of fishes and corals. Therefore, I grabbed this chance and go for the trip.

It was an unforgetable trip. I met friendly guide there, he brought me to see beautiful fish and coral while we were snorkeling. It was my first time to touch the "christmas trees". They are small coral, look like flower, they grow on the stone. When you touch them, they will close. They are colorful, there are red, gree, yellow and etc.

The sand is very smooth, it is very comfortable to walk on the beach with bare feet. There were many people as this is the peak season. The weather was good apart from the first day we arrived as it was raining. The rest of the days were sunny and hot. I decided to have sun bathing this time, as I hope my skin can get golden tan like Jessica Alba. However, it just turned out dark. Sigh... Anyway, I enjoyed the sun bath, I laid on a beach chair and listened to the music. I didn't feel hot as it was windy. It was very relaxing. There were a lot of caucation there doing their sun tanning. Their skin color are beautiful.

In the evening, we played volley ball. I hardly played volley ball, I think this is my 2nd time playing volley in my life. I found it hard to control the direction of the ball. I hit very hard when I served the ball. My hand turn out to have a lot of bruises, especially my wrist. If I practice more, I think I can play better.

After playing volley ball, we played a game called "Two sided snake". It is a game we played when we were kids. In this game, we have to run fast and be alert. It was hilarious, when one was chasing another. We fell, and our body, even someone's face was covered by sand. Unfortunately, I do not have the pictures with me yet.

On the last day, we spent the day in the town in Pulau Terranganu. We were touring around, bought some local delicacies and ate durian. It was nice when many of us gathering together and ate durian. Next time, when you eat durian, remember to use the hardshell (backside) of durian to wash your hand. The smell will just gone, amazing! Also, use it to contain to water, guggle your mouth and drink the water, it helps to remove the bad smell.

If I have a chance I will go back to Redang beach again. So far, it's the most beautiful beach I went to.

Jason Mraz

Jason Mraz is a talented singer. He is very natural and spontaneous on the stage. He brings us joy and happiness. I like his songs because they are so relaxing. There is magic in his song.

Pls visit his homepage at http://www.jasonmraz.com/
I believe he design the homepage himself. It was impressive and creative. He is addicted to ice cream. If I dress myself as an ice cream lady, will he be attracted by me? Haha...

He is amazing guy! I love you, Jason Mraz!

Singfest Concert

I have been looking forward to Singfest concert since mid of July. Finally, I was able to be there and be one of the witness of this big concert. I heard there were 100,000 people in Fort Canning on Sunday. It was amazing!

We reached there around 1pm. This is my firt time to Fort Canning and first time attending a concert. We did not know we have to climb up the stairs. I think there are more than 100 steps. When we reached at the entrance, we saw a very long queeeeeeeeee. We couldn't see where was the end. People brought their food, drinks, like going to a picnic. I didn't prepare anything as I heard we are not allowed to bring our own food. Well, I told my friends that we just cut the quee. I am not going to go into the detail for this, as I am scared I will be scolded by those who have waited for few hours to get in to the gate. I am sorry!!

Anyway, we got into the first gate around 2pm. We still have to proceed to another gate. All the crowd had to wait outside the gate. Imagine it was very hot, no shade, everyone was squeezing. People keep sweating, squeezing... But we had wonderful time even we were hot. We can't wait to see our favorite artist, Alicia Keys, Jason Mraz & One Republic. Finally, the gate was open at 3:30pm. Everyone was rushing and pushing. I was squeezed in to the gate like sardin. Then, everyone was rushing to the field to book a good place.

We were lucky we found a place somewhere in the middle. It was real hot. The first 2 artists I am not familiar with. And the third one is One Republic. I like their show. It was good. There was 15-20 minutes break after every performance. It was really hard to move around as it was really crowded. Every footstep you step out you will probably step on others.

It was around 7pm, Jason Mraz on the stage. Woooooo.... Yeah......... A lot of people shouting and cheering. It was a great performance. I like the way how interact with the audience. He is such a humourous, hilarious and cute guy. It was awesome! Everyone was very high. I think the performance was too short. If I have a chance I should go for his individual concert.

The last 2 artists were PussyCat Dolls and Alicia Keys respectively. Everyone was waiting for these 2 big and famous artist. PussyCat Dolls are sexy and hot. Sadly, I don't really like them. Alicia Keys is one of my favourite singers, she is talented and attractive. It was a long wait. I was too exhausted. She turned out on 11pm, and the performance last for 1.5hrs. It was the longest among all the singers. The last song was "No One" from her latest album. It was great, audience were singing together. Great atmoshepre. Finally, the concert ended at 1am.

It was a tiring day for me. My body was sticky and smelly due to the sweat but I really enjoy the atmosphere, the crowd. Everyone was excited and high.



Lastly, this is the video clip I took while a girl was dancing on her dad's shoulder. It was very funny. Enjoy!

Sentosa!

It was busy weekend for me. I went rock climbing on Friday. This is my first time trying rock climbing, and I thought it is not difficult. I have no idea how it works. My sis asked me to go when I wake up on Friday morning. I was a bit "blur", and I said ok, cos I want to try. Luckily, I invited Kevin to go with us, or else I think we would waste our time there. It was adventurous and very challenging. I think I will try again. I like the feeling when I went up to the top. I felt I achieve something.. Haha...

Today, there was company team building in Sentosa. I am glad I joined cos it was a good work out. Although our team lose the game, I enjoyed the process. The weather was very hot and humid. Everyone seems enjoyed the time.

On the way back, we took the mono-rail and alight at Vivo City. We were thinking of giving away our "One day pass". Those are free for us given by company. It costs $3 per ticket. When we approached to those people who were queeing to buy their tickets and told them we were giving away the ticket. At first, they felt "weird" and did not know if they want to take the tickets. I mentioned again, "we give away for free", and some people shaking their head, some people looked at us with "why you want to give away for free" expression. Finally, some people just took it and even want to pay us.

It is not easy to get thing for free. There is no free lunch in the world. People always think if I get the free thing I have to do something. When we give thing for free without any condition, people will start doubting and questioning. There is no more trust among people. They will think you want to take advantage from them. I also realize one thing, it's better not to ask someone for help if you are not close to them. Not everyone is helpful, some people may think you only look for them if you need help. I rather do it myself if I can.

P.S. I love you

I have watched this movie early this year on Valentine Day. I didn't have much feeling after watching the movie, as it is lower than my expectation. I thought it will be great if they have more scene about the couple, before the husband died. I was very touched when the husband, Gerrit, made a plan by sending letter to his wife, Holly, when he passed away. He knew his wife would have a hard time, and helped her to get through it.

I have heard many of my friends said it is a great movie and they like it a lot. My sister brought the DVD, so I just thought to watch it again. It gave me a lot of impact this time. I have very different feeling from the first time. It somehow related to me.

I feel different this time because I miss someone badly. Like the movie, the wife, Holly, lost her direction and did not know how to move on. Luckily, she had her family, friends and the letter from her husband to support her and help her get through the hardship. It took a year for her to find what she really wants and move on.

I hope I can let him go and move on my life. I love this quote from a forward mail, "If you really love someone, let him free. If he doesn't come back, he is not yours. If he comes back, he is yours and love him forever."

蒲公英的约定

This is one of the soundtracks in the movie "Secret" which directed by Jay Chow. Later he transformed this soundtrack to a song. Amazing, I just like the song. It is a song about memories and promises. It brings back a lot of memories while I am listening to this song.

I love Jay Chow's song, especially the love songs, full of feeling and it can relate to our life.

Smiling face

One day I was with my friend, and she showed me the baby picture in her mobile. She said it can help to destress by watching baby picture. I think it is really helpful tip for me. The picture put smile on my face.






Posted on 19 July.

Always be my baby

You are always be a part of me, I am part of you indefinitely.
You're always be my baby.
I can't stop myself to think about you.
There is your shadow everywhere...
In the train...in the movie theatre...in the house...
There are so much memories here.

The one who leaving always feel better than the one staying.
The place remind me of you.
What you got is only the memories, and the memories fade off easily.

Time is the best healer or men tend to forget things easily?
Life still moving on, it won't stop just because someone is gone.
Don't let your heart win, stretch forward to new direction.

Just want to let you know that you will always be part of me.
This song is dedicate to you. Good bye, baby!


5 July 3:29pm

Finally

I am touched by this song very much. Maybe, this is what I really feel now.
Finally, things has ended. This the way it has to be.
Finally, I have to start my new life.
Finally, I know I need to grow.

I hope things will become better. Life is short, let's cherish it.

爱越深，伤越深

爱越深，伤越深。是因为付出太多吗？是因为对方无动于衷？还是自己一厢情愿？
有一点感慨，爱情并不使自己所想得那么简单。

那天在一个电视节目中有个心理测验，测验你的恋爱情结。这个测验只适合女生作答。
题目是：你的男友作以下那些事情会让你很丢脸？
A)朋友搭顺风车,会跟他要油钱
B)在大卖场上，拼命的拿赠送品
C)在宴席上，狂打包
D)在商业中心，排队抢试吃

选择 A 的人: 恋父/恋母情结
你希望你的情人像爸爸或妈妈

选择 B 的人:恋处女/男情结
你有爱情洁癖, 你希望你的对象是处女/男

选择C 的人:恋童话情结
你希望爱情像童话故事般浪漫. 可以和所爱的人在一起,过幸福快乐的日子

选择D 的人: 恋妇情结
你很会埋怨, 像怨妇那样. 你希望另一半可以了解你.

我的选择是C. 希望有完美的爱情,是不切实际的,与现实差很远. 我觉得这测验蛮准的. 当爱情与想象的有点出入就会觉得失望.

18 June Rainy

Too many things in my mind. Firstly, need to plan for the trip to Koh Samui. We are leaving on Thursday evening, that's tomorrow. Time really flies. I have been looking forward for this trip. Beautiful scenery, nice beach, clear water, snorkeling, spa, massage.... Hope it will be relaxing trip for me.

Also thinking what to bring. It's just a beach area, so I will just bring some T-shirts, shorts, sun proctected stuff (i.e. sun-block, sunglasses, hat). Should be easy, will pack the stuff tonight.

Hmmm... what else bothering me? Ah... he's leaving soon, maybe nextweek. I was shocked when he told me this morning. I have nothing to say but wish him good luck. I hope he is comfortable with the decision he made. "I wish you all the best."

Draw me to you, Lord!

I like to be home alone sometime, especially I can write on my blog. I can't concentrate myself when there are someone around. Writing on blog while listening to the songs. It can be very enjoyable too.

This morning I went to Lord's table meeting at Admiralty district. It is a district blending. Brother also mentioned that it is for our practical need, as there are some working saints stay at this area, and it's convenient for us to meet together.

Yes, it's true. We used to meet at Queenstown, which take me around 45 minutes to travel there. Sometimes, I felt lazy to go to meeting as it is too far for me. It will be a very "reasonable" excuse for me. Hehe...

If the meeting place is in Admiralty, I can't make any excuses not to go, unless I am not in town or sick.

It was a lovely meeting as you can see different age group saints gather together. There are children, youth, young working saints, married couples and elder saints. It's like a family. It would be great to blend with different age groups.

It's been long time I am in my own world, and not really open to the saints and to the Lord. It's never too late to turn to the Lord. Pray that the Lord will re-open my heart to the saints and to the Lord himself.

"Draw me to you, Lord! I hate myself in this situation. The more you are in the world, the more empty you will be. I am so dry within. Lord, please help me. Open myself to you, Lord."

Take a Bow

I heard this song from radio. I like the way Rihanna expressed the song. This song is dedicated for those who have broken hearted in their relationship. Be open and come out from the mess. Do not close yourself up. There's a lot beautiful things out there. Let it go!

拿得起放得下是这首歌给我的感觉. 要潇洒的走出来,不要浪费时间.

Hope you like the song.

Better in Time (2)

Everytime I listen "Better in Time" by Leona Lewis, I believe that all things will get better in time. It is all matter of time. We need a break to think over again. The situation is over but we are not released. We make things complicated cause we can't let go.

I like this song very much, gonna ask my friend to download the song for me, so that I can listen to it every moment. Somehow, it motivates me to move on. Let go and be free... Things will get better...

I admit I am very emotional. Sometimes I think positively, sometimes I am down and think negatively. My thoughts are keep changing. I am affected by one little movement or words. It means everything to you when you care for that person. I try not think that much or don't care.

I need more time to heal... to forget... to love again...

Better In Time

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going
Coming
Thought I heard a knock(Whose there, No one?)
Thinking that (I deserve it)
Now I have realised
That I really didn't knooOooOw
If you didn't notice
You mean everything (quickly I'm learning)
To love again (all I know is)
I'm be oooOook

(Chorus)
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's going to hurt when it heals too
Oh yeaah (It'll All get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile because I deserve tooOooh
(It'll all get better in time)

(Verse)
I could of turned on the TV
Without something that would remind me
Was it all that easy?
To just put aside your feeling
If I'm dreamin
Don't want to let it (hurt my feelings)
But that's the past (i believe it)
And I know that, time will heal it
If you didn't notice
Well you mean everything (quickly i'm learning)
Oooh turn up again (All I know is)
I'm be ok

(Chorus)
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
Oooh yeah(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile because I deserve too oooooh
(It'll all get better in time)

(Bridge)

Since there's no more you and me (No more you and me)
This time I let you go so I can be free
And Live my life how it should be
(No No No No No No)No matter how hard it is
I will be fine without you
Yes I Will

(Chorus)
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals tooOooh
(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile cos I deserve too yes I do
(It'll all get better in time)
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too yeaaaah Ooooh oooooh
(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really loved you
Going to smile cos I deserve too Ooooooh
(It'll all get better....)

Public transport

I always have some new topics in my mind, and thinking to share in my blog, but I found it hard to put into words, or I have forgotten what I want to share. Before I forget, I better note down what was in my mind this morning.

Since I move to Woodlands this January, the travel hours is longer. It takes me 1.15 hours to travel from home to work (if everything goes smooth). I need to transfer 3 times. First, I have to take bus from my house to the nearest MRT station (Marsiling), then take train from Marsiling to Toa Payoh. Lastly, I need to take bus from Toa Payoh to my office. I feel stressful as I need to be at the bus stop at certain timing, because if I miss that timing I have to wait for another 10-15 minutes for the next bus. Not only that, it has to be no track fault or traffic jam, or else I will be really late for work.

As the journey from Marsiling to Toa Payoh takes half an hours, I always aim for seat when people alight at Woodlands. Poly students are my target, as most of them are heading to Republic Poly at Woodlands. If I can't get the seat at Woodlands, the chances to get the seat at other stops are very slim. More and more people get into the train and people only alight at Town area, so the train will be very packed. Hence, I am happy if I can get the seat when I am at Woodlands.

Today, there was a mother with her daughter standing in front of me. The girl was quite active, she kept talking and didn't stand properly. There were no one offer their seats, maybe they are like me we have long journey to travel and not willing to squeeze with other passengers. I was hoping someone could offer the seat, so I wouldn't feel uneasy. After few station, there was someone alight, and the girl sat down. She continue making noise. I think any kids at that age are active as they are curious about everything. I turned my music loud, so I couldn't hear her.

After I reached Toa Payoh, I have to rush to the bus interchange. There are always many passengers queeing for Bus No. 8. But it is easier to get seat than MRT. As it is peak hours, it always jam before reaching Mcpherson Road. Sometimes it is smoother, sometimes it is very jam, depend on your luck.

Luckily, I am not staying in other cities, like Kuala Lumpur, Jakarta or Manila. The traffic there is even worse. You will stuck in the traffic jam for hours. So, don't think we are pitiful.

Saturday,Sunday & Monday

Lazy Saturday

I woke up around 10am in the morning. My sis cooked breakfast (roti plata with hotdog) for me. It tastes really good. After having breakfast, start watching TV. Nothing nice. My sis keep changing the channel. I was surfing net. Searching new songs in Youtube. I found the lyrics, and sang together. I sang over and over again until I am familiar with the songs.
These are my favorite songs:
Secondhand Serenade- Fall for you
Maria Carie- Touch my body
Leona Lewis- Bleeding Love
Alicia Keys- No one
Plain White T's- Hi There Delilah

After singing, I watched Heroes which downloaded in my harddisk. I am still on Season 1. I didn't really chase after it. I watched it when I am bored. It is quite interesting.

Evening time, we went to Dian Xiao Er for dinner. We ordered set menu which consists of Herbal Roasted Duck, Vege, Fish and Toufu (Beancurd). The "Xiao Er" Toufu is my favorite. It is cryspy outside, and tender inside. That's my Saturday.

Sunday- Singapore Zoo

After church, I met my friend and his mum at Singapore Zoo. Although it's not my favourite place, I can gain some knowledge about wild animals. Some animals are adorable, like the otter, monkey, polar bear. I don't know if they are pity or fornunate to be in zoo. On the one hand, they are fortunate bcos they do not need to search the food by themselves. They have zoo keeper to feed them food, to wash their body and clean their "home". On the other hand, they are pity in terms of they do not experience the wilderness, the nature place they suppose to be. There are pros and cons for either place. I think those animals are happy.

Monday- Server down

It is the first day of the week. The server is not "obedient" again. It was not stable throughout the whole day. We couldn't work efficiently. The system was kicked out, and need to sign in and out again. It made Monday even "Bluer". I was waiting for the time pass, keep looking at the time. Tell you what, our computer time is set 5 minutes behind the actual time. It is somehow linked to the server, and is not able to change it. That's why sometime, we are 5 minutes late for the lunch, and stay late after knocked off time...

It's bed time now. I need to sleep and wake up early... Sigh.. another day...

Lost

People get lost down the road. Some people able to find their way out, and some people just stuck where they are. We need map or people's help to get out so that we can reach our destination. I think that's the key, when you get lost you need help. Cause, a lot of time we might not admit or sure that we get lost, but the people around us see clearly where the problem is. It is up to you if you are willing to seek help or just remain in the trouble.

We all want to be happy, less trouble. Sometimes, thing just happen. Do we really have a choice? I think there is, it's depend on how we want things to be. It may be painful or heartache when we make certain decision, but it is for our own good. The reason why we can't make the right choice, cause we are distracted by the temptation and emotion.

Life is not easy. Hope we can find the right direction, right track to reach the destination. Most importantly, we are willing to seek help.

All things come to an end

Suddenly, I have this words flashed on my mind "all things come to an end". What kind of ending do you want it to be? Good or bad; happy or sad; smooth or complicated. It seems we have the choice to choose what ending we want. It takes courage and time to make thing right.

Life seems complicated, many things are out of our control, out of our expectation. It becomes a mess, and you are out of track. You don't know what is right and what is wrong. You wish you can just leave it and don't care. How are you going to mend the thing which has already broken? Eventhough, you try to mend the pieces, it won't become what it was anymore. Why are you still trying? Is it the time for you stop it and get your newe life started?

Too much thinking, too much struggling. Yes, it takes time and courage to end it. The time will come. You are the director of your life, you can choose the ending. What kind of story do you want it to be?

解脱 Release

原来与你爱的人分开也是一种解脱. 开始的时候也许很难受,可是渐渐的就会觉得自由. 如果只能留住对方的身体, 却留不住对方的心是没有意思的. 最好的方法就是放手, 对他好也对自己好. 在一起最重要是要开心,如果整天烦这个,担心那个, 没有一天是开心的,倒不如分手.

原来只要打开胸怀, 大家还是可以做朋友. 做朋友反而更好. 不需要因为他没有打电话和你报告整天的行程或没有关心你而不开心. 对他不再有要求, 他做什么都好, 你也不会过分担心. 这种感觉就叫解脱, 轻松和自由.

Once my friend told me that all things happen for reason. I belive in this quote. Either good things or bad things, they all happen for reason. I should learn how to accept the fact and confront it. It might be harsh or painful, but we learn lesson from every experience. Sometimes, thing doesn't turn out as bad as we have expected. We might over-estimate it. My heart was once broken but now it has recovered. It was not that bad as what I expected. Thanks for everything, at least I am growing through every experience. I feel much more release and happy now.

(By the way, for those who don't understand Chinese, there are different meaning from the Chinese & English. It's tedious to translate. Haha...)

He's my God

That's the song comfort me when I am in trial.
Even you have done things wrong, you break God's heart, but He is faithful.
He is there for you from morning to the evening.
No one on earth can compare to Him.
And I know, now I know......

From the morning to the evening, His faithfulness I see;
His mercy reaching sinners, reaching even me;
And I know, now I know.
Brighter than the brightest sunlight, all doubts and fears must cease;
Sweeter than the sweetest delight, His living Word in me;
And I know, now I know.

That God is there for me tomorrow,
As He is for me today;
That He'll take my cares and sorrow,
And He'll wipe them all away;
There's no crisis that He can't bear,
There's no storm He can't abate;
He's my God, He's my God.

Day by day His grace grows dearer;
His love has conquered me,
Never leaving, never ceasing, His Spirit constantly
Flooding me, rich and free;
Higher than the highest heaven, He lifts me up to see
New Jerusalem descending, His Bride, His love to be
Eternally, it shall be.

I will survive

I was in the train, as usual I was listening to FM98.7. It was playing this song, "I will survive" by Cake. I listened carefully of its lyrics, it seems like this song is written for me and it is right time for me to hear this song. I learned to be strong, I will get along well. Life is still moving on, and it's time to move on.

At first I was afraid
I was petrified
I kept thinking
I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how you'd done me wrong
And I grew strong
I learned how to get along
So now you're back
From outer space
I just walked in to find you here
Without the look upon your face
I should have changed my f-ing lock
I would have made you leave your key
If I'd have known for just one second
You'd be back to bother me

Oh now go,Walk out the door
Just turn around now
You're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire
Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
As long as I know how to love
I know I'll be alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
I will survive
I will survive
Yeah, yeah

It took all the strength I had
Just not to fall apart
I'm trying hard to mend the pieces
Of my broken heart
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
But now I hold my head up high
And you see me
With somebody new
I'm not that stupid little person still in love with you
And so you thought you'd just drop by
And you expect me to be free
But now I'm saving all my loving
For someone who's loving me

Oh now go,Walk out the door
Just turn around now
You're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire
Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
As long as I know how to love I know I'll be alive
I've got all my live to live
I've got all my love to give
I will surviveI will survive
Yeah, yeah

Husband Mart

A store that sells husbands has just opened in Ottawa where a woman may go to choose a husband from among many men. The store is comprised of 6 floors, and the men increase in positive attributes as the shopper ascends the flights.

There is, however, a catch. As you open the door to any floor you may choose a man from that floor, but if you go up a floor, you cannot go back down except to exit the building.

So a woman goes to the shopping center to find a husband. On the first floor the sign on the door reads:
Floor 1 - These men have jobs.

The woman reads the sign and says to herself, "Well, that's better than my last boyfriend, but I wonder what's further up?"

So up she goes.

The second floor sign reads:
Floor 2 - These men have jobs and love, kids.

The woman remarks to herself, "That's great, but I wonder what's further up?" And up she goes again.

The third floor sign reads:
Floor 3 - These men have jobs, love kids and are extremely good looking.
"Hmmm, better" she says. "But I wonder what's upstairs?"

The fourth floor sign reads:
Floor 4 - These men have jobs, love kids, are extremely good looking and help with the housework.

"Wow!" exclaims the woman, "very tempting. BUT, there must be more further up!" And again she heads up another flight.

The fifth floor sign reads:
Floor 5 - These men have jobs, love kids, are extremely good looking, help with the housework and have a strong romantic streak. "Oh, mercy me! But just think. What must be awaiting me further on?"

So up to the sixth floor she goes.

The sixth floor sign reads:
Floor 6 - You are visitor 3,456,789,012 to this floor. There are no men on this floor. This floor exists solely as proof that women are impossible to please. Thank you for shopping Husband Mart and have a nice day!

A Phone Call

A girl quickly punches a number into her phone and waits until she hears the other line pick up.

"Becky, I don’t know what to do, I really don’t. I love him so much and I don’t think he thinks of me that way. I mean, whenever I see him or think of him, I can’t help it, this smile comes across my face. Sometimes he sees me smiling and smiles back. That’s when my knees turn to jello and I get butterflies in my stomach. I know you think that he’s is so totally adorable and cute, but if you look past that and actually listen to what he has to say, you find a totally different person. He’s so caring and considerate and he makes me feel like I don’t deserve him. Well, actually, I don’t deserve him. He’s too perfect, I mean, look at all the girls that fall over for him. I could never be one of those. Their all so pretty and bubbly and….. not me. I couldn’t even start to compare myself to them. But whenever I think of him or see him, I can’t help it, I smile. Now I didn’t tell you this but he called me the other day about homework. I tell you now, I made a complete fool of myself. I’m so embarrassed. I stuttered the whole time, but he was so sweet and just kept talking and making me feel better. He’s so perfect Becky, I don’t deserve him, so why do I keep wishing and praying that he will notice me, why?............Becky? Becky are you there?”

"This isn’t Becky.”

Petrified the girl asks, “Then who is this?”

" This is the guy who’s smile turns your knees to jello and I just wanted to say one thing. Everything you just said now, I’ve been wanting to say since the day I met you.”

A Gift of love

The passengers on the bus watched sympathetically as the attractive young woman with the white cane made her way carefully up the steps. She paid the driver and, using her hands to feel the location of the seats, walked down the aisle and found the seat he'd told her was empty. Then she settled in, placed her briefcase on her lap and rested her cane against her leg.

It had been a year since Susan, 34, became blind. Due to a medical misdiagnosis she had been rendered sightless, and she was suddenly thrown into a world of darkness, anger, frustration and self-pity. And all she had to cling to was her husband, Mark.

Mark was an Air Force officer and he loved Susan with all his heart. When she first lost her sight, he watched her sink into despair and was determined to help his wife gain the strength and confidence she needed to become independent again.

Finally, Susan felt ready to return to her job, but how would she get there? She used to take the bus, but was now too frightened to get around the city by herself. Mark volunteered to drive her to work each day, even though they worked at opposite ends of the city. At first, this comforted Susan, and fulfilled Mark's need to protect his sightless wife who was so insecure about performing the slightest task.

Soon, however, Mark realized the arrangement wasn't working. Susan is going to have to start taking the bus again, he admitted to himself. But she was still so fragile, so angry - how would she react? Just as he predicted, Susan was horrified at the idea of taking the bus again.
"I'm blind!", she responded bitterly. "How am I supposed to know where I am going? I feel like you're abandoning me."

Mark's heart broke to hear these words, but he knew what had to be done. He promised Susan that each morning and evening he would ride the bus with her, for as long as it took, until she got the hang of it. And that is exactly what happened. For two solid weeks, Mark, military uniform and all, accompanied Susan to and from work each day.

He taught her how to rely on her other senses, specifically her hearing, to determine where she was and how to adapt to her new environment. He helped her befriend the bus drivers who could watch out for her, and save her a seat.

Finally, Susan decided that she was ready to try the trip on her own. Monday morning arrived, and before she left, she threw her arms around Mark, her temporary bus-riding companion, her husband, and her best friend. Her eyes filled with tears of gratitude for his loyalty, his patience, And his love. She said good-bye, and for the first time, they went their separate ways. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday... Each day on her own went perfectly, and Susan had never felt better. She was doing it! She was going to work all by herself.

On Friday morning, Susan took the bus to work as usual. As she was paying the fare to exit the bus, the driver said, "Boy, I sure do envy you." Susan wasn't sure if the driver was speaking to her or not. After all, who on earth would ever envy a blind woman who had struggled just to find the courage to live for the past year? Curious, she asked the driver, "Why do you say that you envy me?"

The driver responded, "It must feel good to be taken care of and protected like you are." Susan had no idea what the driver was talking about, and again asked, "What do you mean?"

The driver answered, "You know, every morning for the past week, a fine-looking gentleman in a military uniform has been standing across the corner watching you as you get off the bus. He makes sure you cross the street safely and he watches until you enter your office building.
Then he blows you a kiss, gives you a little salute and walks away. You are one lucky lady." Tears of happiness poured down Susan's cheeks. For although she couldn't physically see him, she had always felt Mark's presence. She was lucky, so lucky, for he had given her a gift more powerful than sight, a gift she didn't need to see to believe - the gift of love that can bring light where there is darkness.

Bro's wedding

I am happy for my brother, he finally get married. hehe.. I think mum and dad has waited this for long. Hopefully they can upgrade to grandpa & grandma next year.

I recalled what's the pastor said " those who arranged & blessed by God will not be separated". I was striked when I heard this. Isn't it true? If the person which is not arranged by God, he will leave you one day. Human love is conditional and limited. God's love is unconditional and unlimited. If we love God, we will love others by God's love. It is not the feeling out from ourselves, but from God.

You can fall for someone very much, do whatever things for him, but you dare not to say you love him uncontionally. Human love is conditional and breakable, we expected to receive when we give. Love God, and you will know how to love man.