原来幸福是短暂的。认清楚是件好事，不需拖拖拉拉。
你想要的我不能给，我想要的你不能配合。
我并不觉得我要求的多，可能是你太大男人。
或许，需要时间考虑彼此需要的是什么。
到底，我们在彼此的心目中有多重要。
至少，现在在我心中有很多问号。
也许，你也一样。
开始怀疑你之前所说的话。可能那是追求的手段吧。
我也希望是我猜错了。
给大家一点时间，合得来就继续，合不来就分开吧。
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1 year ago
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Sunday, October 18, 2009
幸福
我想自己是幸福的。开始时是我想太多。
也许你在对的时间出现。
现在的我和几个月前的想法很不同。
喜欢一个人要跟着心走，而不是条件式或冲动式的。
说不出喜欢的理由，因为喜欢一个人不需要理由。
只要觉得自然、舒服就好。
谢谢你，让我真正体会什么是爱。
也许你在对的时间出现。
现在的我和几个月前的想法很不同。
喜欢一个人要跟着心走，而不是条件式或冲动式的。
说不出喜欢的理由，因为喜欢一个人不需要理由。
只要觉得自然、舒服就好。
谢谢你，让我真正体会什么是爱。
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Bad thoughts, Go Away!
Things did not go smoothly as expected. It seems everything went against my will. When things happened, I didn't have choice but accepted as what it was. If I didn't calm down and thought positively, I would go crazy or devastated.
I am afraid of hoping something when it does not exist. But the problem is I always imagine things that does not exist. I planned something, it was all in my mind, I didn't tell anyone if it did not work out. And I got dissappointed when the plan can't be fulfilled. I guess I am paranoid. I hope I can stop it, but it is in me. When there is some thoughts in me, I will try to focus on other things, and thoughts will be gone.
I am afraid of hoping something when it does not exist. But the problem is I always imagine things that does not exist. I planned something, it was all in my mind, I didn't tell anyone if it did not work out. And I got dissappointed when the plan can't be fulfilled. I guess I am paranoid. I hope I can stop it, but it is in me. When there is some thoughts in me, I will try to focus on other things, and thoughts will be gone.
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Temptation
Oh, The Temptation from Steve V on Vimeo.
This is so cute. I can't stop laughing, and I am feeling better after watching this.
Unsatisfied
It's seems like everytime when I post an entry I am moody. I admire other's life, their life are so contented and live fully to their life. They are happy, always put on beautiful smile, they love what they are doing and having.
What am I lack of? Why am I not happy? I try to do things that make me happy, but it doesn't last. I enjoy dancing and baking. I love doing these. I feel flattered when people said my movement of cha-cha or salsa steps are beautiful. I feel satisfied when people tasted my cake, cookies and scone, and said they are delicious. I admit I like attention. But I don't this just for attention, as these are what I like.
Maybe, I am lonely. I think I am growing older, and people around me urge me to get a partner. I got stressed when I hear too many of these conversation. I pretend to smile back and tell them not to worry about me. My standard is too high, the right one has not appeared. Is this really true? 50/ 50. Am I really set a high standard? I believe in feeling. When things come right, even he is poor or different races, I won't bother too much.
I told my friends, maybe I will stay single if I do not meet a right one. I don't have the confidence to have a life partner. It's so "temporary" to me. It comes and goes, and never stay long.
I don't really share what I really feel with friends, there are only one or two that I can open myself with. I always think I don't need a lot of friends, keep a few who really care for me, share each others' happiness and sorrowness. That's why, I do not have a lot of good friends, cos I don't develop a deeper friendship with them. However, I envy those who have a lot of friends around, they seems very happy together. What a dilemma, I actually hope I have a group of friends who can do things together.
What am I lack of? Why am I not happy? I try to do things that make me happy, but it doesn't last. I enjoy dancing and baking. I love doing these. I feel flattered when people said my movement of cha-cha or salsa steps are beautiful. I feel satisfied when people tasted my cake, cookies and scone, and said they are delicious. I admit I like attention. But I don't this just for attention, as these are what I like.
Maybe, I am lonely. I think I am growing older, and people around me urge me to get a partner. I got stressed when I hear too many of these conversation. I pretend to smile back and tell them not to worry about me. My standard is too high, the right one has not appeared. Is this really true? 50/ 50. Am I really set a high standard? I believe in feeling. When things come right, even he is poor or different races, I won't bother too much.
I told my friends, maybe I will stay single if I do not meet a right one. I don't have the confidence to have a life partner. It's so "temporary" to me. It comes and goes, and never stay long.
I don't really share what I really feel with friends, there are only one or two that I can open myself with. I always think I don't need a lot of friends, keep a few who really care for me, share each others' happiness and sorrowness. That's why, I do not have a lot of good friends, cos I don't develop a deeper friendship with them. However, I envy those who have a lot of friends around, they seems very happy together. What a dilemma, I actually hope I have a group of friends who can do things together.
Monday, July 6, 2009
Apologizes
It's not easy to apologize, it need courage to do so. I feel difficult to apologize or even to praise others. I don't feel natural or comfortable to do this. I guess this is why I do not have a lot of close friends or I am not popular. I always think I should not do things to please others if I don't feel comfortable.
I finally realize that I have to do something to build better or good relationship with others. I need to make a habit to praise others, to apologize whether or not I am wrong. Gradually, it will become very natural without forcing myself to do so.
I have made initiative to apologize, even though I don't think I am totally wrong. You can't use your mindset to think how other people think. To change others, you have to change yourself. I have done my part and it's up to her whether she want to mend the relationship. Deep in my heart, I knew we will never go back to the "old days".
I finally realize that I have to do something to build better or good relationship with others. I need to make a habit to praise others, to apologize whether or not I am wrong. Gradually, it will become very natural without forcing myself to do so.
I have made initiative to apologize, even though I don't think I am totally wrong. You can't use your mindset to think how other people think. To change others, you have to change yourself. I have done my part and it's up to her whether she want to mend the relationship. Deep in my heart, I knew we will never go back to the "old days".
Monday, June 29, 2009
What is real?
What is real? I don't feel real today.
Monday always seems not real to me.
I miss my bed. I miss my dream.
I dreamt a lot lately, but can't remember it all.
I felt so hard to get up from bed.
I am so sleepy now, my eyelips can't open wide.
Another 2.5 hours... Gambade!
What is the most striking news lately?
Almost all the media, TV, newspaper,Radio are broadcasting the dead news of MJ.
I was shocked when I heard the news, but I don't feel sad, just feel a bit pity.
I am not a fan of MJ, but like some of his songs. People commented he is even famous after his death. Everywhere is about his news. Radio, TV start to promote his songs, even has special program just to remember him. People talk good things about him after his death. Some criticize that it is too late to treasure oneself when he is gone. That's the real world, face it. People won't say bad thing when he is death. Company want to make money, they will publish more of his album, photograph or other commercial products. That's business, isn't it? At least, he was famous once. People still love him and remember him even he is gone.
Inter-personal relationship,regardless relationship with family, friends, colleagues or love ones. It is a life-long learning skill. I fail again and again, hope to be a better person. It is just too hard to satisfy everyone. I once choose to ignore, just do what I think is the best. I received advise and critisicm. I am just not those people who can listen to critisicm. I learn to listen, even it's tough. I learn to be more patient. I learn to keep silence. But it is not positive to become silence or quiet, people will think you are not in the good mood. What should I do? People think that I am too emotional. Chinese has a saying,“ 见人说人话，见鬼说鬼话”(Direct translate- Talk like a human when you meet human; Talk like a ghost when you meet a ghost). In other word, you got to pretend to be happy even you are not. Is this a scheme or a technique? It is very common in business world.
Back to the title. What is real? Suddenly, I feel everything is fake...
Monday always seems not real to me.
I miss my bed. I miss my dream.
I dreamt a lot lately, but can't remember it all.
I felt so hard to get up from bed.
I am so sleepy now, my eyelips can't open wide.
Another 2.5 hours... Gambade!
What is the most striking news lately?
Almost all the media, TV, newspaper,Radio are broadcasting the dead news of MJ.
I was shocked when I heard the news, but I don't feel sad, just feel a bit pity.
I am not a fan of MJ, but like some of his songs. People commented he is even famous after his death. Everywhere is about his news. Radio, TV start to promote his songs, even has special program just to remember him. People talk good things about him after his death. Some criticize that it is too late to treasure oneself when he is gone. That's the real world, face it. People won't say bad thing when he is death. Company want to make money, they will publish more of his album, photograph or other commercial products. That's business, isn't it? At least, he was famous once. People still love him and remember him even he is gone.
Inter-personal relationship,regardless relationship with family, friends, colleagues or love ones. It is a life-long learning skill. I fail again and again, hope to be a better person. It is just too hard to satisfy everyone. I once choose to ignore, just do what I think is the best. I received advise and critisicm. I am just not those people who can listen to critisicm. I learn to listen, even it's tough. I learn to be more patient. I learn to keep silence. But it is not positive to become silence or quiet, people will think you are not in the good mood. What should I do? People think that I am too emotional. Chinese has a saying,“ 见人说人话，见鬼说鬼话”(Direct translate- Talk like a human when you meet human; Talk like a ghost when you meet a ghost). In other word, you got to pretend to be happy even you are not. Is this a scheme or a technique? It is very common in business world.
Back to the title. What is real? Suddenly, I feel everything is fake...
Sunday, March 1, 2009
有主就有盼望
工作越久,就会遇到越多不同的人. 有时, 真的不知道谁真谁假, 谁值得相信. 在这强食弱者的社会, 你若不保护自己, 就回被人"吃" 了. 可以说是一个残酷的社会.
每个人都选择不同的生存方式. 有的人选择保护自己, 有的人选择逃避, 有的人索性不理, 有的人只相信自己,不相信别人, 不管是什么样的生存方式, 久了都会觉得很累. 因为活着不是真正的自己, 必须在不同的人面前带着不同的面具. 有时需要强颜欢笑, 有时要说好话去讨好人, 有时要嘻嘻哈哈当作若无奇事的样子.
我自认没有办法去掩饰自己的喜怒哀乐, 我的表情都写在脸上了. 今天如果心情很好, 就会说很多话, 脸上总带微笑, 也不易发脾气. 但是, 心情不好的话, 就不爱说话, 一副臭脸的样子, 也很容易发脾气. 这也许在职场上并不专业, 因为不可以随意表现自己负面的情绪.
我没有办法选择以上的方法生存, 因为我没有办法伪装自己. 但我真的很庆幸我有主, 我并不是靠自己活着, 乃是靠主而活. 我不需要伪装自己, 而靠主的复活大能去胜过这一切. 靠主的力量, 我可以更自在的对人对事; 我可以爱我的仇敌. 因为有主, 所以不会感到无助; 因为有主, 所以才有希望.
每个人都选择不同的生存方式. 有的人选择保护自己, 有的人选择逃避, 有的人索性不理, 有的人只相信自己,不相信别人, 不管是什么样的生存方式, 久了都会觉得很累. 因为活着不是真正的自己, 必须在不同的人面前带着不同的面具. 有时需要强颜欢笑, 有时要说好话去讨好人, 有时要嘻嘻哈哈当作若无奇事的样子.
我自认没有办法去掩饰自己的喜怒哀乐, 我的表情都写在脸上了. 今天如果心情很好, 就会说很多话, 脸上总带微笑, 也不易发脾气. 但是, 心情不好的话, 就不爱说话, 一副臭脸的样子, 也很容易发脾气. 这也许在职场上并不专业, 因为不可以随意表现自己负面的情绪.
我没有办法选择以上的方法生存, 因为我没有办法伪装自己. 但我真的很庆幸我有主, 我并不是靠自己活着, 乃是靠主而活. 我不需要伪装自己, 而靠主的复活大能去胜过这一切. 靠主的力量, 我可以更自在的对人对事; 我可以爱我的仇敌. 因为有主, 所以不会感到无助; 因为有主, 所以才有希望.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Be real to yourself
Be real to yourself. Express what you feel. If you like or don't like certain thing, just say it. Don't force yourself to accept it because you don't want to offend anybody. Of course, don't over do it. We still have to be polite.
I am who I am. I am not here to please everyone. If you like me, just stay. If you don't like me, just leave. I wouldn't mind to lose a friend if he or she is not worth it.
Friends have many types. Some are true friends, those friends who really care about you, and willing to share your happiness and burdens. Some are friends for activies, playing sports, watching movie and going to parties. Some are colleagues, some colleagues can become true friends with you but most of them are merely colleagues to you.
Who are the one who always support you and be true to you? They are the one who you have to appreciate and be thankful. I am glad I can still find a few who are willing to share my joy when I am happy; and listen to my sorrow when I am down. We can't be perfect for everybody. Those who are not can just remain formal friends. I wouldn't want to interfere and know more about those people if we are not close. Only those people I care and important to me, I will put extra effort for them.
Most of my friends commented I was cold and cool when they first met me. But they will change their mind after get to know me. Some friends will say I am very quiet, those are the friends who don't know me well. It is because I don't speak too much to someone I barely know or I am not interested in them.
Friends are important in our life. They actually play an important part in our life. It is sad if there are no one to share things with you. Good friends influence you in good things, but bad friends influence you in bad things. Be caution when you choose friends.
I am who I am. I am not here to please everyone. If you like me, just stay. If you don't like me, just leave. I wouldn't mind to lose a friend if he or she is not worth it.
Friends have many types. Some are true friends, those friends who really care about you, and willing to share your happiness and burdens. Some are friends for activies, playing sports, watching movie and going to parties. Some are colleagues, some colleagues can become true friends with you but most of them are merely colleagues to you.
Who are the one who always support you and be true to you? They are the one who you have to appreciate and be thankful. I am glad I can still find a few who are willing to share my joy when I am happy; and listen to my sorrow when I am down. We can't be perfect for everybody. Those who are not can just remain formal friends. I wouldn't want to interfere and know more about those people if we are not close. Only those people I care and important to me, I will put extra effort for them.
Most of my friends commented I was cold and cool when they first met me. But they will change their mind after get to know me. Some friends will say I am very quiet, those are the friends who don't know me well. It is because I don't speak too much to someone I barely know or I am not interested in them.
Friends are important in our life. They actually play an important part in our life. It is sad if there are no one to share things with you. Good friends influence you in good things, but bad friends influence you in bad things. Be caution when you choose friends.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
戏如人生, 人生如戏
人无聊时就会想无聊的事. 看完"随时候命" 港剧, ending 还不错, 有情人终成眷属. 这都是大家希望看到的结局. 可以和喜欢的人在一起. 过程中, 也许遇到障碍, 彼此不信任, 互相怀疑, 但是最重要的是要互相沟通, 把误会化解.
对看电视剧的人来说, 最关注的是男女主角会不会在一起, 有没有完美的结局. 好人有好报, 坏人有坏报. 大家都相信你种什么因, 就有什么样的果.
人家说戏如人生, 人生如戏. 在戏里的故事, 也可能发生在我们的周围. 当然有些情节只能在戏里发生. 像你希望和你喜欢的人在一起, 可是却不如你所愿. 在戏里, A 喜欢 B, B 却喜欢 C, A 就回成全B, 默默的离开. 但是, 剧本不会就这样停在这里. 它会让 D 出现, A 与 D 就擦出不一样的火花. 总之, 它会想办法让结局变得完美.
爱情就是不能勉强, 因勉强没有幸福. 是你的,就是你的; 不是你的, 就该放手. 只能安慰自己, 是因为时机未到. 我相信神已为每一个人都预备了适合自己的对象, 只是时间的问题. 幸运的话, 你可以很快就找到属于自己的幸福. 不够幸运的话, 也许要经过一些挫折才会找到那真命天子. Anyway, 我只想相信神.
对看电视剧的人来说, 最关注的是男女主角会不会在一起, 有没有完美的结局. 好人有好报, 坏人有坏报. 大家都相信你种什么因, 就有什么样的果.
人家说戏如人生, 人生如戏. 在戏里的故事, 也可能发生在我们的周围. 当然有些情节只能在戏里发生. 像你希望和你喜欢的人在一起, 可是却不如你所愿. 在戏里, A 喜欢 B, B 却喜欢 C, A 就回成全B, 默默的离开. 但是, 剧本不会就这样停在这里. 它会让 D 出现, A 与 D 就擦出不一样的火花. 总之, 它会想办法让结局变得完美.
爱情就是不能勉强, 因勉强没有幸福. 是你的,就是你的; 不是你的, 就该放手. 只能安慰自己, 是因为时机未到. 我相信神已为每一个人都预备了适合自己的对象, 只是时间的问题. 幸运的话, 你可以很快就找到属于自己的幸福. 不够幸运的话, 也许要经过一些挫折才会找到那真命天子. Anyway, 我只想相信神.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
如果有如果 -- IF
如果有如果, 你会想做什么?
如果有如果, 我想回到我最开心的时刻.
如果有如果, 我不会做让自己后悔的事.
如果有如果, 我想坚持自己的梦想, 读自己喜欢的科系.
如果有如果, 我不想工作, 环游世界.
如果有如果, 我希望有特异功能, 想要什么就有什么.
如果有如果, 我希望可以不说话, 别人就可以了解我.
如果有如果, 我希望时间可以停止在最浪漫的时刻.
如果有如果, 我希望自己永远是十八岁.
如果有如果, 我想知道你在想什么.
如果有如果, 我希望自己是jumper, 可以去那里就那里.
如果有如果, 我想擦掉令我伤心的回忆.
如果有如果, 我希望能令你天天开心.
如果有如果, 我不希望你离开我.
如果有如果, 我想天天和你在一起.
如果有如果, 我希望大家可以坦白, 简单一点.
我好像已沉浸在 "如果" 的世界. 我必需将自己抽离出来, 回到现实的世界. 怀疑自己是否有妄想症, 整天想一些不可能发生的事情. 可是,有时却觉得很有趣. 如果可以的话,应该尝试写科幻小说.
If there is "if" what would you like to do?
I would like to go back to the happiest moment.
I wouldn't do the things that I would feel regret.
I would persist on my own dream, to take the course I wanted.
I wouldn't work but travel the world.
I hope I can have extra-ordinary power, to get what I wanted.
I hope people can understand me without saying a word.
I hope the time would stop at the most romance moment.
I hope I am always 18 years old.
I would want to know what you are thinking.
I hope I am a jumper, to go wherever I want.
I hope to forget the things that let me sad.
I hope you are happy always.
I hope you won't leave me.
I hope to be with you everyday.
I hope everyone can be frank and simple to each other.
It seems like I am in the world of "If", it's time for me to get out from here and turn to the reality. I guess I am paranoid, as I like to think the things which are impossible. But, I think it can be interesting sometimes.
如果有如果, 我想回到我最开心的时刻.
如果有如果, 我不会做让自己后悔的事.
如果有如果, 我想坚持自己的梦想, 读自己喜欢的科系.
如果有如果, 我不想工作, 环游世界.
如果有如果, 我希望有特异功能, 想要什么就有什么.
如果有如果, 我希望可以不说话, 别人就可以了解我.
如果有如果, 我希望时间可以停止在最浪漫的时刻.
如果有如果, 我希望自己永远是十八岁.
如果有如果, 我想知道你在想什么.
如果有如果, 我希望自己是jumper, 可以去那里就那里.
如果有如果, 我想擦掉令我伤心的回忆.
如果有如果, 我希望能令你天天开心.
如果有如果, 我不希望你离开我.
如果有如果, 我想天天和你在一起.
如果有如果, 我希望大家可以坦白, 简单一点.
我好像已沉浸在 "如果" 的世界. 我必需将自己抽离出来, 回到现实的世界. 怀疑自己是否有妄想症, 整天想一些不可能发生的事情. 可是,有时却觉得很有趣. 如果可以的话,应该尝试写科幻小说.
If there is "if" what would you like to do?
I would like to go back to the happiest moment.
I wouldn't do the things that I would feel regret.
I would persist on my own dream, to take the course I wanted.
I wouldn't work but travel the world.
I hope I can have extra-ordinary power, to get what I wanted.
I hope people can understand me without saying a word.
I hope the time would stop at the most romance moment.
I hope I am always 18 years old.
I would want to know what you are thinking.
I hope I am a jumper, to go wherever I want.
I hope to forget the things that let me sad.
I hope you are happy always.
I hope you won't leave me.
I hope to be with you everyday.
I hope everyone can be frank and simple to each other.
It seems like I am in the world of "If", it's time for me to get out from here and turn to the reality. I guess I am paranoid, as I like to think the things which are impossible. But, I think it can be interesting sometimes.
Friday, February 20, 2009
My mind is blank
I normally update my blog once or twice a week, and it usually in the weekend. I always have some inspiration or thinking during the week. I always hope I can have Iphone or Smart phone, so I can update my blog any time. It's weird that my mind become blank when I want to write something. I usually read my friend's blog before I start to think what to write.
Well, I didn't start up with a good week. I was late at work on Monday. The attendance become very important especially during the economy recession. "If you really want the job, please be serious about it." I was a bit bothered by it, but I did not have a choice. I need to put effort for it, go to bed early at night, and force myself to wake up at 6:30am in the morning.
I am struggling to come out with words right now. I do not know what to write, my mind is not working well as I am a bit sleepy. I think I should just stop here, and I have been spending half an hour for this.
Well, I didn't start up with a good week. I was late at work on Monday. The attendance become very important especially during the economy recession. "If you really want the job, please be serious about it." I was a bit bothered by it, but I did not have a choice. I need to put effort for it, go to bed early at night, and force myself to wake up at 6:30am in the morning.
I am struggling to come out with words right now. I do not know what to write, my mind is not working well as I am a bit sleepy. I think I should just stop here, and I have been spending half an hour for this.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Valentines
Valentines is finally over. I felt lonely when I saw ladies carried the roses, the couples were cuddling in public places, stalls were selling roses, love-shaped balloons, soft toys, restaurants are having promotion for valentine days... Everywhere is full of Valentines atmosphere. I was trying not to have any feeling about it, treat it as a normal day. Maybe, I still wish to receive flowers, chocolate like every girls wishes. I am still longing for romance.
Some people happy, some people sad. We have different stories... Valentines will only be meaningful when the couple truely love each other. I am wishing everyone is able to find their true love.
What is true love?
True love = Love + Sex (It's from a Chinese movie)
Believe it or not... Lol...
Some people happy, some people sad. We have different stories... Valentines will only be meaningful when the couple truely love each other. I am wishing everyone is able to find their true love.
What is true love?
True love = Love + Sex (It's from a Chinese movie)
Believe it or not... Lol...
Friday, February 6, 2009
Thoughts... realization...
Just felt it's such a long day today. I was quite stressed at work because of the new budget given. I was a bit lost my mind, wonder around like zombie but still have to work, reply emails, doing quotations. Just found the time passed very slowly.
Have planned to watch movie after work. Rushing for my work, couldn't wait to leave office as soon as I could.
The title of the movie "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button". It didn't turn out to be my type of movie. I felt it is boring when I was watching it. Many times I felt asleep but I stayed awake, I was expecting something exciting but it turned out to be prosaic.
I think this is a movie that make you think, and I think a lot after watching it. Benjamin Button had an unusual life than the other, he lived backward. He borned as in he was 80 years old man, and he became younger and younger as the time passed by. I don't know if this is good or bad if this is really happen in life. He couldn't grow and live normally like it suppose to be. He might miss a lot of things in life. He can't stay with the woman he loved as he grew younger and younger. The sad thing is he didn't have a choice as he borned in that way. But he didn't blame anyone, he just accept who he was and live normally.
I just realize how lucky I am, as I was borned normal and healthy. I asked myself a lot of questions. Am I really treasure my life? Have I really put the effort for everything I do? Do I know what I really want? What do I need to achieve in life? I found myself still seeking for the answer and am very puzzled.
Especially in the middle of the night, the inspiration comes. It's good to have some realization. It makes me to think. It's time to do something about my life. Hope it can be something memorable and be able to tell the story to my grandchildren. Lol...
Have planned to watch movie after work. Rushing for my work, couldn't wait to leave office as soon as I could.
The title of the movie "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button". It didn't turn out to be my type of movie. I felt it is boring when I was watching it. Many times I felt asleep but I stayed awake, I was expecting something exciting but it turned out to be prosaic.
I think this is a movie that make you think, and I think a lot after watching it. Benjamin Button had an unusual life than the other, he lived backward. He borned as in he was 80 years old man, and he became younger and younger as the time passed by. I don't know if this is good or bad if this is really happen in life. He couldn't grow and live normally like it suppose to be. He might miss a lot of things in life. He can't stay with the woman he loved as he grew younger and younger. The sad thing is he didn't have a choice as he borned in that way. But he didn't blame anyone, he just accept who he was and live normally.
I just realize how lucky I am, as I was borned normal and healthy. I asked myself a lot of questions. Am I really treasure my life? Have I really put the effort for everything I do? Do I know what I really want? What do I need to achieve in life? I found myself still seeking for the answer and am very puzzled.
Especially in the middle of the night, the inspiration comes. It's good to have some realization. It makes me to think. It's time to do something about my life. Hope it can be something memorable and be able to tell the story to my grandchildren. Lol...
Friday, January 30, 2009
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Family Reunion
Time really flies, finally it's Chinese New Year. I have been waiting for this day since Dec 08. I was anticipating my parents' coming, so that we can have family reunion.
The atmosphere in Spore is really different from back home. At this time, you will hear the firecrackers at back home, everyone is excited for the new year. In Spore, it is not allowed to play firecrackers, everyone is either have their family reunion dinner at home or restaurant.
I can't recall when was the last time we had all the family members gather together to have reunion dinner on New Year eve. I think it was 2001 if I'm not wrong. I was away in 2002, 2003 and 2004. From 2005 to 2007, some was working, some was studying abroad, it always had 1 or 2 missing. Year 2008, my brother was getting married in March, and decided not to go back on CNY.
Finally, in year 2009, we all can make it for the reunion dinner, and this time we were in Spore. We also have new member this year, my sister-in-law and 2 cousins who are studying and working here.
We are going to have a short trip in Desaru. This will be the 2nd family trip. Hope we have wonderful time together. It is nothing sweeter than having quality time with family. I love you all!!!
Friday, January 16, 2009
想法
看过我的部落格的人都觉得我很悲观,总是沉浸在自己的世界里. 我承认自己对某些事情持有悲观的想法. 也许是因为没有快乐的经历,总是碰钉子. 所以并不敢往好的方面想, 因为没有希望, 就不会有失望. 每当我觉得是好事来临了, 有一种山穷水尽疑无路, 柳暗花明又一村的感觉; 但是却在刹那间消失了. 就像烟火一样, 放烟火时是非常的漂亮, 却在短短的几分钟化为乌有.
我也很想有乐观的想法, 尽可能往好的方面想, 开开心心过每一天. 乐观的态度并不是与身具来的, 它可以从生活中培养出来. 我想这与你所交往的人是息息相关的. 如果你周围的人都很乐观, 这会影响你的思考,情绪, 慢慢的你会被他们感染, 就会变得乐观,快乐.
其实, 我并不喜欢讲别人的是非 (gossipping). 因为很多时候都是负面的. 我会提出自己的看法但是并不想知道整件事的来龙去脉. 这太烦人了. 有时你知道的越多并代表对你好. 所以我选择不知道比较好. 如果人家不说, 我就不问. 他如果要说, 自然会告诉你.
世界上有太多的事并不是你我可以想像的, 而且不在你的控制范围内. 有些事发生了, 你只能觉得无奈, 并不能做些什么. 我想也无所谓了, 做自己应该做的事, 不该做的事少做.
我也很想有乐观的想法, 尽可能往好的方面想, 开开心心过每一天. 乐观的态度并不是与身具来的, 它可以从生活中培养出来. 我想这与你所交往的人是息息相关的. 如果你周围的人都很乐观, 这会影响你的思考,情绪, 慢慢的你会被他们感染, 就会变得乐观,快乐.
其实, 我并不喜欢讲别人的是非 (gossipping). 因为很多时候都是负面的. 我会提出自己的看法但是并不想知道整件事的来龙去脉. 这太烦人了. 有时你知道的越多并代表对你好. 所以我选择不知道比较好. 如果人家不说, 我就不问. 他如果要说, 自然会告诉你.
世界上有太多的事并不是你我可以想像的, 而且不在你的控制范围内. 有些事发生了, 你只能觉得无奈, 并不能做些什么. 我想也无所谓了, 做自己应该做的事, 不该做的事少做.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
一枝梅 il ji mae
Recently, I was busy watching il Ji Mae. I personally like the show and started to like the main actor, Lee Jun Gi. Though he looks like a girl, but he still very attractive to me.
In the stories, he has two characters. On the one hand, he pretend nothing happen and being playful and naughty. On the other hand, he live with pain, as his family was murdered and he tries any mean to seek for the murderer.
He is in love with Han Xiao Zhu, which is the daughter of his enemy. He was shocked when he found out but could not resist the love for her.
If you like Korean movie, I will recommend you to watch this show.
In the stories, he has two characters. On the one hand, he pretend nothing happen and being playful and naughty. On the other hand, he live with pain, as his family was murdered and he tries any mean to seek for the murderer.
He is in love with Han Xiao Zhu, which is the daughter of his enemy. He was shocked when he found out but could not resist the love for her.
If you like Korean movie, I will recommend you to watch this show.
Friday, January 2, 2009
阳光总在风雨后
The title of this music video is 阳光总在风雨后 (Sun will appear after the rain). It is a very meaningful song. To start of the new year, I hope we can forget the past, and always look at the brighter side in our life. Believe that there is rainbow after the rain.
Remember, life is short, break the rules, forgive and forget quickly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably, and never regret anything that made you smile.
It's easier to say than done. I have failed many times, but I have to try again and again. This is just the process, we learn and we grow. Let's press on and achieve our goals and dreams!!
New Year Eve
We finished work around 4pm. Then, I had dinner with my colleagues. We went to a "Si Chuan" restaurant in China Town. I like the pork ribs, beef with vegetables, and beef with chilly (picture below). It looks very spicy, because there are a lot chillies. But to my surprise, the beef is not spicy at all. After dinner, we went to Karaoke. I enjoyed singing with my colleagues, not to worry if I am off key, a lot of fun...
After Karaoke, I have to say good bye to my colleagues and went for "part 2". It was really crowded in Clarke Quay. The network was in congestion, I was so frustrated and nervous cos I couldn't reach my friends and my phone was in low bat. As my friends were in Arena, so I decided to join the queue. As the queue was long, I was left alone for the count down. While, other ppl were hugging each other and wish each other "Happy new year". Look at me, so poor thing. Then, finally, I got into Arena, it was so crowded inside. As about to give up, I saw Jeremy... Wow, how to describe my feeling that time. It was like seeing the light in the tunnel. I was so relieved.
I was supposed to meet Yvonne, but it was really dark and crowded, I couldn't see her, so just stick with J's friends. Half an hour later, I saw my other friend, Sally, just at the table right beside us. Wow, such a coincidence. The worries and disappointment earlier were all gone.
Thank you to all my friends, to add colour to my life. Wish everyone has brighter year ahead!
After Karaoke, I have to say good bye to my colleagues and went for "part 2". It was really crowded in Clarke Quay. The network was in congestion, I was so frustrated and nervous cos I couldn't reach my friends and my phone was in low bat. As my friends were in Arena, so I decided to join the queue. As the queue was long, I was left alone for the count down. While, other ppl were hugging each other and wish each other "Happy new year". Look at me, so poor thing. Then, finally, I got into Arena, it was so crowded inside. As about to give up, I saw Jeremy... Wow, how to describe my feeling that time. It was like seeing the light in the tunnel. I was so relieved.
I was supposed to meet Yvonne, but it was really dark and crowded, I couldn't see her, so just stick with J's friends. Half an hour later, I saw my other friend, Sally, just at the table right beside us. Wow, such a coincidence. The worries and disappointment earlier were all gone.
Thank you to all my friends, to add colour to my life. Wish everyone has brighter year ahead!
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