Monday, March 31, 2008

He's my God

That's the song comfort me when I am in trial.
Even you have done things wrong, you break God's heart, but He is faithful.
He is there for you from morning to the evening.
No one on earth can compare to Him.
And I know, now I know......

From the morning to the evening, His faithfulness I see;
His mercy reaching sinners, reaching even me;
And I know, now I know.
Brighter than the brightest sunlight, all doubts and fears must cease;
Sweeter than the sweetest delight, His living Word in me;
And I know, now I know.

That God is there for me tomorrow,
As He is for me today;
That He'll take my cares and sorrow,
And He'll wipe them all away;
There's no crisis that He can't bear,
There's no storm He can't abate;
He's my God, He's my God.

Day by day His grace grows dearer;
His love has conquered me,
Never leaving, never ceasing, His Spirit constantly
Flooding me, rich and free;
Higher than the highest heaven, He lifts me up to see
New Jerusalem descending, His Bride, His love to be
Eternally, it shall be.

Sunday, March 30, 2008

I will survive

I was in the train, as usual I was listening to FM98.7. It was playing this song, "I will survive" by Cake. I listened carefully of its lyrics, it seems like this song is written for me and it is right time for me to hear this song. I learned to be strong, I will get along well. Life is still moving on, and it's time to move on.

At first I was afraid
I was petrified
I kept thinking
I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how you'd done me wrong
And I grew strong
I learned how to get along
So now you're back
From outer space
I just walked in to find you here
Without the look upon your face
I should have changed my f-ing lock
I would have made you leave your key
If I'd have known for just one second
You'd be back to bother me

Oh now go,Walk out the door
Just turn around now
You're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire
Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
As long as I know how to love
I know I'll be alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
I will survive
I will survive
Yeah, yeah

It took all the strength I had
Just not to fall apart
I'm trying hard to mend the pieces
Of my broken heart
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
But now I hold my head up high
And you see me
With somebody new
I'm not that stupid little person still in love with you
And so you thought you'd just drop by
And you expect me to be free
But now I'm saving all my loving
For someone who's loving me

Oh now go,Walk out the door
Just turn around now
You're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire
Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
As long as I know how to love I know I'll be alive
I've got all my live to live
I've got all my love to give
I will surviveI will survive
Yeah, yeah

Friday, March 28, 2008

Husband Mart

A store that sells husbands has just opened in Ottawa where a woman may go to choose a husband from among many men. The store is comprised of 6 floors, and the men increase in positive attributes as the shopper ascends the flights.

There is, however, a catch. As you open the door to any floor you may choose a man from that floor, but if you go up a floor, you cannot go back down except to exit the building.

So a woman goes to the shopping center to find a husband. On the first floor the sign on the door reads:
Floor 1 - These men have jobs.

The woman reads the sign and says to herself, "Well, that's better than my last boyfriend, but I wonder what's further up?"

So up she goes.

The second floor sign reads:
Floor 2 - These men have jobs and love, kids.

The woman remarks to herself, "That's great, but I wonder what's further up?" And up she goes again.

The third floor sign reads:
Floor 3 - These men have jobs, love kids and are extremely good looking.
"Hmmm, better" she says. "But I wonder what's upstairs?"

The fourth floor sign reads:
Floor 4 - These men have jobs, love kids, are extremely good looking and help with the housework.

"Wow!" exclaims the woman, "very tempting. BUT, there must be more further up!" And again she heads up another flight.

The fifth floor sign reads:
Floor 5 - These men have jobs, love kids, are extremely good looking, help with the housework and have a strong romantic streak. "Oh, mercy me! But just think. What must be awaiting me further on?"

So up to the sixth floor she goes.

The sixth floor sign reads:
Floor 6 - You are visitor 3,456,789,012 to this floor. There are no men on this floor. This floor exists solely as proof that women are impossible to please. Thank you for shopping Husband Mart and have a nice day!

A Phone Call

A girl quickly punches a number into her phone and waits until she hears the other line pick up.

"Becky, I don’t know what to do, I really don’t. I love him so much and I don’t think he thinks of me that way. I mean, whenever I see him or think of him, I can’t help it, this smile comes across my face. Sometimes he sees me smiling and smiles back. That’s when my knees turn to jello and I get butterflies in my stomach. I know you think that he’s is so totally adorable and cute, but if you look past that and actually listen to what he has to say, you find a totally different person. He’s so caring and considerate and he makes me feel like I don’t deserve him. Well, actually, I don’t deserve him. He’s too perfect, I mean, look at all the girls that fall over for him. I could never be one of those. Their all so pretty and bubbly and….. not me. I couldn’t even start to compare myself to them. But whenever I think of him or see him, I can’t help it, I smile. Now I didn’t tell you this but he called me the other day about homework. I tell you now, I made a complete fool of myself. I’m so embarrassed. I stuttered the whole time, but he was so sweet and just kept talking and making me feel better. He’s so perfect Becky, I don’t deserve him, so why do I keep wishing and praying that he will notice me, why?............Becky? Becky are you there?”

"This isn’t Becky.”

Petrified the girl asks, “Then who is this?”

" This is the guy who’s smile turns your knees to jello and I just wanted to say one thing. Everything you just said now, I’ve been wanting to say since the day I met you.”

Thursday, March 27, 2008

A Gift of love

The passengers on the bus watched sympathetically as the attractive young woman with the white cane made her way carefully up the steps. She paid the driver and, using her hands to feel the location of the seats, walked down the aisle and found the seat he'd told her was empty. Then she settled in, placed her briefcase on her lap and rested her cane against her leg.

It had been a year since Susan, 34, became blind. Due to a medical misdiagnosis she had been rendered sightless, and she was suddenly thrown into a world of darkness, anger, frustration and self-pity. And all she had to cling to was her husband, Mark.

Mark was an Air Force officer and he loved Susan with all his heart. When she first lost her sight, he watched her sink into despair and was determined to help his wife gain the strength and confidence she needed to become independent again.

Finally, Susan felt ready to return to her job, but how would she get there? She used to take the bus, but was now too frightened to get around the city by herself. Mark volunteered to drive her to work each day, even though they worked at opposite ends of the city. At first, this comforted Susan, and fulfilled Mark's need to protect his sightless wife who was so insecure about performing the slightest task.

Soon, however, Mark realized the arrangement wasn't working. Susan is going to have to start taking the bus again, he admitted to himself. But she was still so fragile, so angry - how would she react? Just as he predicted, Susan was horrified at the idea of taking the bus again.
"I'm blind!", she responded bitterly. "How am I supposed to know where I am going? I feel like you're abandoning me."

Mark's heart broke to hear these words, but he knew what had to be done. He promised Susan that each morning and evening he would ride the bus with her, for as long as it took, until she got the hang of it. And that is exactly what happened. For two solid weeks, Mark, military uniform and all, accompanied Susan to and from work each day.

He taught her how to rely on her other senses, specifically her hearing, to determine where she was and how to adapt to her new environment. He helped her befriend the bus drivers who could watch out for her, and save her a seat.

Finally, Susan decided that she was ready to try the trip on her own. Monday morning arrived, and before she left, she threw her arms around Mark, her temporary bus-riding companion, her husband, and her best friend. Her eyes filled with tears of gratitude for his loyalty, his patience, And his love. She said good-bye, and for the first time, they went their separate ways. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday... Each day on her own went perfectly, and Susan had never felt better. She was doing it! She was going to work all by herself.

On Friday morning, Susan took the bus to work as usual. As she was paying the fare to exit the bus, the driver said, "Boy, I sure do envy you." Susan wasn't sure if the driver was speaking to her or not. After all, who on earth would ever envy a blind woman who had struggled just to find the courage to live for the past year? Curious, she asked the driver, "Why do you say that you envy me?"

The driver responded, "It must feel good to be taken care of and protected like you are." Susan had no idea what the driver was talking about, and again asked, "What do you mean?"

The driver answered, "You know, every morning for the past week, a fine-looking gentleman in a military uniform has been standing across the corner watching you as you get off the bus. He makes sure you cross the street safely and he watches until you enter your office building.
Then he blows you a kiss, gives you a little salute and walks away. You are one lucky lady." Tears of happiness poured down Susan's cheeks. For although she couldn't physically see him, she had always felt Mark's presence. She was lucky, so lucky, for he had given her a gift more powerful than sight, a gift she didn't need to see to believe - the gift of love that can bring light where there is darkness.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Bro's wedding

I am happy for my brother, he finally get married. hehe.. I think mum and dad has waited this for long. Hopefully they can upgrade to grandpa & grandma next year.

I recalled what's the pastor said " those who arranged & blessed by God will not be separated". I was striked when I heard this. Isn't it true? If the person which is not arranged by God, he will leave you one day. Human love is conditional and limited. God's love is unconditional and unlimited. If we love God, we will love others by God's love. It is not the feeling out from ourselves, but from God.
You can fall for someone very much, do whatever things for him, but you dare not to say you love him uncontionally. Human love is conditional and breakable, we expected to receive when we give. Love God, and you will know how to love man.





Friday, March 14, 2008

爱我的人和我爱的人

在感情世界里, 往往会遇到你爱的人和爱你的人。 当两者同时出现时,会令人陷入迷糊与矛盾的状态。因为不知道如何选择。

如果选择与你爱的人在一起,你会爱的很辛苦。凡事为他着想,为他做许多事,他却不闻不问,一副若无其事的样子。可是自己却甘心乐意的付出,也不只是为了什么。爱情有时候是执著的,明知道没有结果,却不顾一切的去爱,爱到你死我活。很难解释为什么,因为无法解释。当你真正爱一个人的时候,是没有原因的。

如果选择与爱你的人在一起,却过不了良心那一关,觉得对不起他。同样他也是为你付出却不要求回报。当你爱的人理你的时候,你就会想起他,因为你知道只要一通电话他就会出来见你。当你见到他是想抱他却抱不了。虽然知道自己爱的人不是他,却不可以失去他。这是自私的做法,却无法避免。

就是夹在这复杂的感情世界里,人们才会有千万种的情绪,爱与恨互相交替。爱是有期限的,恨却是无限期的。就因为复杂的情绪,人们才会想不开,做傻事。说为某某人牺牲自己的生命,好像很伟大,我说是太傻了。可是,当人们无法以理性来处理事情时,旁人是无法阻止的。

爱情其实是美好的,却因为人有恨,有妒嫉,将它复杂化。也许,我们应该放开胸怀,珍惜身边所有的,知足常乐。

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Rainy Night

The rain started pouring from Monday until today, and it is still raining outside, drizzling... I feel gloomy when it is raining, especially at night. I feel I am more emotional and the mind is active. That's explain how I get the inspiration of writing something on the blog.

I used to think that I like raining day. Maybe it was affected by my ex-bf, as he likes raining. Until now, I realize that I actually don't like raining day, and to some extent I hate it. Of course, I like it when I am at home, lying on the bed, reading a book or surfing net with the a cup of hot tea or chocolate. That will be wonderful.

Will raining day remind you of a person, a thing, an incident? Is it sad or happy? I don't know, I think I have mixture feeling. Hopefully, we can think of happy things when it is rainy day, so that it won't make our day gloomy. Keep happy things in your memory and dump all the unhappy things away.

Love is....confusing? tempting? addicting? fascinating?

I was reading my friend's blog, about the crazy thing you do for your love ones. I echo with what she said. Somehow, it's quite related to me. We do stupid things when we are crazy of that person, eventhough you know there is no return or hope.

I think there is no right or wrong in love. You can't really stop someone for loving you as they have the right to do so. Because of love, we care for someone, we hope we can do everything for them and please them. Eventhough it might be something stupid or crazy, we don't really care. That is the moment you do something you think it is worth it and you want to be in that way. It may seems crazy in people's eyes, but only you know that it is the happiest and sweetest things in that moment.

What love really is? There is no definite answer. Everyone has their own definition. I think what really important is your intention. If your intention is wrong, you are not in love with the person, rather you are using them. It is the worst thing that ever happen when you realize people treat you good because they want to use you. It can be sex, money, pride, ego...

Yes, love can drive one crazy. Sometimes, we did something which we know there is consequences, but we're willing to take the risk because we love the person. Is the love blind? Sometimes it is, when we don't use our mind.