What is real?

What is real? I don't feel real today.
Monday always seems not real to me.
I miss my bed. I miss my dream.
I dreamt a lot lately, but can't remember it all.
I felt so hard to get up from bed.
I am so sleepy now, my eyelips can't open wide.
Another 2.5 hours... Gambade!

What is the most striking news lately?
Almost all the media, TV, newspaper,Radio are broadcasting the dead news of MJ.
I was shocked when I heard the news, but I don't feel sad, just feel a bit pity.
I am not a fan of MJ, but like some of his songs. People commented he is even famous after his death. Everywhere is about his news. Radio, TV start to promote his songs, even has special program just to remember him. People talk good things about him after his death. Some criticize that it is too late to treasure oneself when he is gone. That's the real world, face it. People won't say bad thing when he is death. Company want to make money, they will publish more of his album, photograph or other commercial products. That's business, isn't it? At least, he was famous once. People still love him and remember him even he is gone.

Inter-personal relationship,regardless relationship with family, friends, colleagues or love ones. It is a life-long learning skill. I fail again and again, hope to be a better person. It is just too hard to satisfy everyone. I once choose to ignore, just do what I think is the best. I received advise and critisicm. I am just not those people who can listen to critisicm. I learn to listen, even it's tough. I learn to be more patient. I learn to keep silence. But it is not positive to become silence or quiet, people will think you are not in the good mood. What should I do? People think that I am too emotional. Chinese has a saying,“ 见人说人话，见鬼说鬼话”(Direct translate- Talk like a human when you meet human; Talk like a ghost when you meet a ghost). In other word, you got to pretend to be happy even you are not. Is this a scheme or a technique? It is very common in business world.

Back to the title. What is real? Suddenly, I feel everything is fake...