Bad thoughts, Go Away!

Things did not go smoothly as expected. It seems everything went against my will. When things happened, I didn't have choice but accepted as what it was. If I didn't calm down and thought positively, I would go crazy or devastated.

I am afraid of hoping something when it does not exist. But the problem is I always imagine things that does not exist. I planned something, it was all in my mind, I didn't tell anyone if it did not work out. And I got dissappointed when the plan can't be fulfilled. I guess I am paranoid. I hope I can stop it, but it is in me. When there is some thoughts in me, I will try to focus on other things, and thoughts will be gone.